So today I went to the army recruiter to weigh in and see how I was doing.  Of course I always have to get measured by the only lady in the office.  Everytime she see's me she tells me that I need to follow this diet that they gave me.  I told her that at the moment I don't have the money to buy chicken and fruit and vegetables.  I know that sounds odd, but I seriously have $1.99 in my account!  I was eating healthy, but after that food ran out I had to start eating the non-parishable items.  They aren't bad, but they aren't the healthiest thing either.  But anyway, she alway has something to say!!  This lady alone is making me not want to continue coming there and maybe just go to the air force.  This way I don't have to deal with someone telling me that i'm doing everything WRONG!  I'm trying, but I think i'm just not getting there as fast as THEY want me to.  Isn't this my choice??  If they don't want me a month from now then I don't need them.  Maybe thats one of the reasons the Army is so below their quota for the year and the Air Force is so above!  I go to the gym basically everyday and work out with a trainer, but the lady says that's not good enough.  I'm working out aren't I??  I could just stay at home and sit on my butt all day, but no.  Then she tells me I need to stop lifting weights and just run.  I do want some muscle and tone to my body.  It seems like she's never suggesting.  It's like my parents all over again basically saying everything i'm doing is wrong and if I don't listen to them nothing will get better.  I have been losing weight so i'm really close to just not going anymore and possibly join the Air Force.  Another thing is I finally told one of my "friends" my issues and why I was mad at them.  So again I get it turned around on me (I don't even know how is makes sense) and i'm the jerk.  I'm just so sick of people right now.  I think i'm going to try and get to my step-moms before it rains and enjoy some alone time.  Maybe thats what I need because everyone is getting to me and i'm stressing out!!  Why does this lady have to be a jerk so early in the morning.  Now when I come back she's going to be even meaner because I know my trainer is going to say something after I left.  I know it's not their job to be nice, but aren't they like sales people?  Doesn't make me wanna go into the army.  I think after today i'm ready to wait for the Air Force.  We shall see.  Sorry i'm just rambling but i'm kind of irritated.

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Mom2t...
Jun. 3, 2008 at 11:17 AM

Sorry that it is not going the way you wanted it to. I would let it go in one ear and out the other. I know how hard you are trying and that is all that matters.

You and I are so alike! We let people get to us when we shouldn't, then we let them walk all over us after they treat us like crap!

Hang in there....it can only get better!

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