so i was watching my recorded season finale of house last night and had a major melt down. in the end a girl dies because she was taking a flu pill and coulnt fight for her life after a major bus crash, that alone and all the drama of the story behind it started the flood of tears. then when she died house was uncouncious too and was on this white bus (like to heaven) and asked if he was dead she said not now. then he said but i want to be there is no pain here! that hit me like a ton of bricks!!! there are many days i feel like that . i wish i could go to sleep and never wake up. but my kids, family and friends keep me here! Then i feel so guility and like a baby because i am sure other people are in more pain and are happy just to be alive. so i dont say anything. because i am a strong woman and this isnt like me. i am really scared that i am slowly dying inside and dont like the person that i have become but dont know where to go from here. 


 
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singe...
Jun. 3, 2008 at 1:41 PM Ok hun I have had those days too, Let God make a masterpiece out of what seems to be a mess. He is still a healer and deliverer that has never changed...

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