Wow 5 yrs….Where r u boo???? Today makes 5 yrs…..yet I'm lonelier than ever…...

I woke up this morning excited and full of love….only to be disappointed once again…I never thought that I would have to spend this very special day alone….5 yrs ago I met the most outstanding, smart, lovable, but arrogant person anyone could ever meet…. 5 yrs ago I learned the most beautiful name ever spoken from my lips….and 5 yrs ago I began to love the most lovable man I ever known!!!! 5 yrs ago my life was made complete and perfect!!! I thought that God had blessed me with eternal love…. I was only to be disappointed again.. Who would have thought that 5yrs from meeting this wonderful man that I would hear him speak his last words, see him smile his last smile and breathe his last breath…


Today I have so much to be happy about, yet so much hurt I feel….within those 5 yrs our love grew and became stronger than ever!!! Our love and passion for one another created our beautiful daughter and many, many wonderful memories all which I'm thankful for!!!! But, I'm sadden that I'm unable to celebrate this day with u, nor will I ever celebrate this day with u again. I'm sadden that today I wasn't able to hear u whisper "Happy Anniversary Baby" in my ear as you always do right before u leave for work…..nor will I ever hear u whisper those words again….


I promise that I won't be sad any more and that the tears I shed today will be the last…From this day....June 3, 2008, and every June 3 to come, I will celebrate our love and precious, precious memories!!!!!!!









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Jun. 12, 2008 at 5:49 PM Awe, that made me cry. It's like reading something that I wrote. I know what you mean about thinking you had been blessed with eternal love and being disappointed. I felt the same way.  You know what's really weird though? Johnathan't nickname was boogie. What a coincidence!

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Jun. 24, 2008 at 12:29 AM that is beautiful!

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Jul. 6, 2008 at 7:18 PM that was beautiful

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Jul. 21, 2008 at 10:21 PM

That was touching!

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Aug. 24, 2008 at 9:29 PM

wow... that was deep.. and touching i have had a loss too it was my broher tho, so all i can say is pray thru it!! and stay strong...

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Nov. 4, 2008 at 4:40 PM

Gosh, you make me cry.  :O(  I have a lump in my throat! I hurt for your loss!!! I am sorry for your pain!!! If you believe in heaven, then please know that he is still with you each day!!! I'm sorry he's not there physically, but he is with you both. You and yours and his beautiful daughter. Again, I'm sorry. And please feel my love and hurt for you both. I send it with peace from my heart!

Take care,

your friend TERESA :O)

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