Something I forgot

[jeniguenther]

Lately I have been feeling a little bit stressed out.  I have so much house work that I am behind on, potty training is going great except my son will not poop on the toilet, and my daughter just doesn't get it.  Soon I will have a third and then what am I supposed to do! 

So today as I am grudgingly picking up toys in the living room I picked up one of Malaki's train tracks and thought about how much fun he has with it.  It was like all of a sudden God was saying, "hey remember what you asked me for?  Why are you being so ungrateful?"  I realized that this is what I have wanted my entire life.  To be a mom and to be a wife, is exactly like I thought it would be?  NO!  Is it hard?  YES!  But it is what I wanted and I let myself forget how much I love it.

Being a mom is such an awesome responsibility, I don't mean in the sense that it is so fun and great, it is that... But I mean more in the sense that it is a HUGE thing.  I mean, everything I do, every choice I make will have some effect on my children as they grow.  I know that only God can save my children, but in a way I am responsible for their souls.  The things that I teach them and the way I raise them can have such an impact on the outcome of their lives...  Talk about adding even more stress!

But it didn't add more stress, it made me see my need to lean on God even more, something I haven't been doing as often as I should!  I stopped cleaning and just held the track in my hand as I thanked God for the quiet moments like these where my kids are asleep and I have a little me time.  I thanked him for my family and the reminder that he has given me so much more than I have ever asked for!!  Yet somehow I always seem to want more.  I asked him to guide me as I raised my family, to help me to be a better wife and mother and to never again forget how amazing it is that I have 2 great kids, a wonderful husband and a baby on the way.  Not to mention the rest of my family and friends. 

Never again do I want to forget how great my life is, because I was so focused on how "hard" life is I was getting way more stressed out that I needed to be.  I want to be the best mom and wife that I can be, but I want it to be because people can see Christ in us, not because my house is clean, or my kids are potty trained.  And when I focus on the things that really matter, the rest of life tends to just fall into place.

[wonderwomen1]

Jun. 11, 2008 at 11:32 PM Very well said I agree with you. I sometimes have to remind myself how lucky I am also.

[Chrissyz84]

Jun. 12, 2008 at 1:22 AM Jeni you hit it right on the head. I totally agree with you. I was thinking the same thing all week. All I wanted growing up was to be a mom and how I haven't been the greatest at it. That's why I'm going to change somethings around and spend for time with Kaleb. I thought that your piece said it all just right. Good job! God bless and help you and us all threw these years.