Everyone Else's Baby But Mine

[RustedRalncoat]

 

 

           Lets start off with a little history. I am a mom of one and I am trying to have another one (half ass trying at that,) not that we are doing anything to try and prevent a pregnancy quiet the oppositeI. I  just started to see a infertility specialist, and we do the baby dance constantly. I am just stuck in the baby/skinny limbo. A part of me wants to be skinny again more than anything in the world and another part of me wants another child. Everyone around me is pregnant or has just recieved their bundle of joy with opened arms. As a congratulation  I feel I should list them

My neighbor and good friend-  Found out yesterday she is having twins

My good friend- is due any day now

My good friend- Had a daughter last Oct

My cousin- had her baby today at 3 am

My sister in law- 2 months pregnant

My good friends friend who just visited for a week- 5 months pregnant

PREGNANT>>>>> PREGNANT>>>>>>PREGNANT

  I swear if I get a call from a female friend or relative it is going to be her telling me she is pregnant.. So why am I not? I have had enough baby dust blow on me to last me a life time :) First of all this is not a conplaining letter, I am so stoked for everyone its like i'm pregnant. And thats what worries me... I already want to go shopping to buy my sister in law everything she needs ( they have little money and I want their baby to be just as supplied as mine is) and yesterday when I found out my neighbor was having twins I was so excited I forgot who was pregnant. I kept saying things like "now we get to pick out names, ya know plural not just one". And I started planning things with her/for her. I actually got so excited about it that I gave up thoughts of me having a baby at all. Does anyone thinks that is as flaky as I think it is? I feel like I want to have everything and nothing to do with their pregnancies at all.. If I have anything to do with them I will feel like I am trying to take over but I can't control myself I mean come on I am writing a post about them granted they did too but why should I bother. Realy if someone told me today that I was pregnant I don't think I could be any more excited than I am right now. Its like as soon as my neighbor told me she was pregnant It was like she told me I was pregnant. I dunno I have always been a weird cookies maybe all I need is a couple days for all my excitement to wear down. Just thought I would take the time and tell everybody about everyone elses exciting news :)