Frustarated & tired
- June 13, 2008 at 9:25 AM by WesKate
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I feel like I am failing motherhood 101. A year ago both my boys, then 1.5 & 2.5., were both saying (well my 1 year old made babble nosies resembling anyway) please, thank you, bless you, & excuse me. They covered their mouths when they sneezed & most of the time when they coughed. Now its like I never taught them any of that. I am constantly reminding them. I also always feel as if I am always yelling at them too. They are always fighting over one toy. We don't have a lot of toys but we do have plenty that they shoud both find something to play with. My youngest has been in this whiny stage for a year now it seems. He doesn't ask he demands in his whinyest (i no that is wrong spelling) voice possible. He rarely talks in a normal voice any more. I am about to flip my lid! I am always in a bad mood now it seems because they get to me. I am a SAHM & have been looking for a job becuase I cannot take it being home with them 24/7. I can't do it. I am losing my mind. My husband comes home & plays with them so good. My friends who are unattached & kid free come over & play with them no problem. Me? I read books, take them to the park & read some more. Its my way of getting away. When I do play with them my templerflares up quickly. Somemoms can do the SAHM thing but me it seems can't. I feel guilty though because I want to be that super mom. But we can't go out anywhere but to the park. There aren't to many free things to do. Plus we are selling our one car to help lower our bills. Another reason I feel guilty is becuase they now start begging their daddy not to go to work. I would not be ableto handle that if they did that to me. He feelsbad enough. He is trying to get a different job with better hours. He sells cars & works 5 days a week. His 2 days off are never in a row & if its the last week of the month he only gets 1 day off. He works from 8:30am to 9pm sometimes later if a customer comes in late. He is supposed to have 2 days, besides Saturdays, when he leaves at 5 or goes in at noon. He has worked there for over 3 months & I think he has come home early twice & went in late once. The old dealership he wokred at was supposedto be the same deal & he rarely did that. Its not even like he is selling cars when he has to stay. Another thing bumming me out is the car we are selling. We have a buyer & another person is interested so we are hoping the 2nd buyer will offer us a little more money to make the difference we owe less. Problem is we can't get an unsecured loan for it. Tops we will need is less than $2600 but we need a secured loan. Well we own nothing to secure it. If we did we probably wouldn't be selling our other car. We are thinking about asking my parents or we can ask the buyers if they will take a operators permit & as soon as we pay off the rest we will mail the title. It takes trust on their part but I am hoping for that result.Sorry for my long pity party. I am just needing a vent. I feel a little better. Everyone have a good weekend.
- Written by WesKate on June 13, 2008 at 9:25 AM
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