Life as I knew it, no longer is...

[mrs_pink]

I knew that having another baby would change my life forever. I just forgot how much it changes your life. If I could only get some sleep that was restful, things might be a bit more tolerable. Some of the blame is my fault. I chose to exclusively breastfeed the baby and I'm the only one who can feed her. I know she is only three weeks old and it will get better. These last few weeks have been a mixture of joy and hell. One moment she is the cutest thing on earth and the next she is screaming for boob! I went to my dad's house for twenty minutes last night to give him his father's day card and by the time I got back home, she was screaming so hard that she about passed out bc she wanted boob! All this kid wants is boob and to sleep on my body. By the way, she only sleeps good when she is on someone's body, like their chest or shoulder. I guess she has us wrapped around her little finger, but again she is only three weeks old. I feel that bc she is so young, that she should get what she wants. I do however let her fuss for a few minutes before picking her up. I know better than to pick her up the minute she makes a peep. The phone is also an issue. I think I'll turn off the ringer. Every time I start to fall asleep, the phone rings. Ugggh!! I'm sorry that it seems that every time I post an entry, it seems that I'm complaining or whinning. Sleep is an amazing thing. I'm not asking for much. I wonder what it will be like when I go back to work? When I come home to sleep, I'm still going to have to pump every three hours. That sucks, but the benefits far outweigh using formula! My house is a disaster! I mean really! There is laundry to be done. My floors are so dirty that they are making my feet black. We have concrete floors, in case you are wondering. I bagged clothes from my closet that I can't wear or is not of the nursing nature. I also bagged my scrubs from work, until I go back to work. All these bags are sitting in my living room making it look like a goodwill drop off. My DH doesn't help as much as he should, but that is nothing new. I really liked it when my mom stayed with us when the baby was born. She cleaned my house for me and even cooked for me while she was here. It was really nice to have that kind of help. I wish I could afford a cleaning service! I feel as if I am going to lose control and start punching holes in the walls bc of being overwhelmed with the no sleep and all the house things that need to be done. I would have my oldest help me out, but everything she does is half-assed and takes twisting her arm to get her to do anything. On the brighter side of things, I know this too shall pass and things will get better. I don't want her to grow up too fast, but I can't wait till she sleeps better. Till next time,

Tamara

[Lovetoscrapbook]

Jun. 16, 2008 at 9:02 PM Aww hang in there...if I lived closer I'd help ya out!!!!

[theshihtzu]

Jun. 16, 2008 at 9:20 PM

Ooh, I remember so well! Sorry you're so beat; things are bound to get better!

(((hugs)))

Lisbeth 

[HopefulTaurus]

Jun. 16, 2008 at 9:33 PM

I totally understand, except for trying to get the oldest to help out.  I am also very grateful to have my mother here with me for 3 more weeks.  It has really been worth putting up with her.  I wish I could know what it is like to get more than 3 hours of sleep at a time.  I know time will fly by and we will make it through it all.  Take it easy and just do what you can, when she lets you (today, Samuel has only given me two breaks of more than 40 minutes, and that is with my mom here to help, unfortunately she can only feed him, if I have pumped milk available.  Speaking of, I need to go pump now, since I have a chance.

[Nikki_21_2]

Jun. 17, 2008 at 4:37 PM You can do this you can do anything you are mom! Good luck and I send me love!

<3Nikki<3