I have been home for 7 days now and still am on the go to catch up on everything. I enjoyed my time with my daughter and grand daughters so much it was hard to leave them. Now my husband was glad to have me back, I was gone for almost 2 months. Kaylie my oldest grand daughter keeps telling me to fly back and pick her up and fly her back here. I keep telling her that Daddy will be back home from Iraq in 3 weeks. I know when he gets there then grandma coming to get her will not be as urgent in her mind.

Wow the hugs and love I did receive was the best. I was able to connect more with Teagan my youngest grand daughter. She went from hiding shyly from me and crying if Mom left her with me to hearing I wuvvv u. I love hearing that from her and the hugs and kisses. Kaylie and I have had the time to bond and now Teagan bonded with me. The time went by so fast and we tried to do everything we kept putting off for the next visit. So, we went to Lady & Sons restaurant for some down home southern foods. It reminded me of my granny's  cooking awesome food.

Now, most of you might know I have MS and heat does not agree with me. It was hot most of the time in GA and I didn't always feel so great. I took naps during the day, which I hate to do. My ankles swelled specially my left one, I can now say I have my ankles again LOL I also experienced alot of pain and had to give my neurologist a call. I was using a non narcotic drug called tramadol and would take one a night. But, the pain just got so bad I had to take upto 4 a day to get through. With the bad I did have a great time with the kids and wouldn't change a thing.

As the time went by and just a few days away  from flying home I had a fall. My daughter has stairs and I am usually good about hanging on to the rail and going slow. I am not sure how  my fall started still foggy on that but, I lost my footing and slide down about 6 steps. Teagan was behind me and Kaylie and Traci were already downstairs. Traci my daughter thought I might had broken my leg it was bending more then I would have liked. But, I felt OK there and was just sitting there getting my barrings. Then I started feeling funny and told Traci I didn't feel right. I remember trying to take deep breaths and seeing white and black. I told her  I felt  like  I was going to pass out. I want to say this was the scariest thing I have ever been through. I have MS and I have had seizures but, right before I went out I thought "Is this it?" I truly felt as if my life was over? As I was in and out I remember gasping for air and feeling my daughter there over me. She did call 911. By the time they got there I was coming out and felt maybe it was a seizure at the time. Long story short I did see my GP when I got home and she felt it wasn't a seizure and mentioned the  tramadol and she felt that I passed out  because it made my heart rate slow down. It was a very scary thing to happen and hope I never feel that again.

Having MS  and then having that experience has made me slow down and look at what is in front of me. I am sure you all may have gotten an e-mail from family and friends saying something like if you knew your going to die tomorrow I wanted to tell you that I love you. I do try to do this anyway but, this has just made me open my eyes to who and what is important in my life. Please tell those loved ones you care and specially the kids who might be bad at times that you love them. What's a little crayon on your walls? They can be painted over, they can't be replaced.

It's good to be back home but, I do miss the little ones. Have a great night

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