This is what MY Autism looks like

[mom4fun]

Hi!

My name is Ryan and I'm 8 years old and I am autistic.  Actually, they call mine PDD, NOS because I do some of things they say autistics do, but not everything.  Me and my friends do some of the same things and we do different things because we're all different.  But I'm me and I'm good with that.

I like to ride my bike, watch TV, write books, read and swim.  I also like to play with my friends.  But I have a hard time, sometimes because I don't always understand what they are doing.  My mom says boys tease each other and call each other names, sometimes.  But it hurts my feelings.  I didn't think it was nice to call names.  I'm better if there are only a couple of friends at the same time.  Because there is too much going on that I have to remember and process and think about how to act, some times more kids can cause me to overload.

I get frustrated easily sometimes.  My mom says I get frustrated over nothing.  Like today, I took off my shoes and when I went to go put them on, I could only find 1 of them.  OOOOOH, I got mad!  I looked everywhere and it was nowhere.  I got mad and started throwing things and calling my mom names cause she couldn't find it.  I say bad words sometimes too.  I like to say bad words when I'm mad, so that everyone knows that I'm mad.  My mom always sends me to my room when I do that cause she trying to remind to tell her I'm mad instead of using bad words, but I forget.

I'm pretty straightforward and don't know how to hide my thoughts and feelings.  So I just come out and tell you whatever is in my head.  My mom says that I need to learn how to be tactful.  I don't know what that means.  I just say what I'm feeling, which isn't always nice........sorry.  I'm trying

My mom says I'm too hard on myself and that I want to be perfect.  I can't stand it when I'm trying to something and I can't or I get something wrong.  I always say I'm going to give up.  My mom told that it's okay to make mistakes and that we're all learning.  But I hate it.

When I'm nervous, sometimes I try to be funny.  I like to do arm farts and tell Yo Mama jokes.  She laughs at me at home and tells me it's not appropriate in certain places.  But I just want people to like me and they will if I make them laugh, right?  This part is so confusing.......

One last thing about me for now.  Kisses are poisoness!!!!  My mom always wants to kiss me.....Blaaaaahk!  I will hug her and tell her I love her, BUT NO KISSES.

If you know anyone with autism; remember that we're all different.  Some might like kisses.....but NOT me.

[maxsmomma]

Jun. 16, 2008 at 10:21 PM

Ryan,

My son is almost 8 and has 'High Functioning Autism'. I think you are both AWESOME!!  Some of this reminds me of him......

Hugs (not kisses) to you and your mom!