the talk of death

[prettybride]

when people say i cant wait to die or wish they would die. Life is not a joke. I lost my first love and the father of my daughter to suicide. he would always say i wonder what it would be like to die and if this way would be painful. he would also say what would u do without me. i would then say they would have to stick me in a hospital. then i would say what would u do without me if i was gone, he said dont ever talk like that. then one day after we got into a fight i got a phone call and i knew something was wrong. his sister said she needed me to come to his moms house, on the way i just knew he was gone. when someone commits suicide the think their pain is all gone but actually they leave everyone else with all the pain and heartache. always wondering why and what could i have done to make things better.live life to the fullest and enjoy it while u r here. dont take it for granted cause anything can happen. have a great day everyone.

[ladybug142008]

Jun. 19, 2008 at 4:20 PM I have been there myself,,I lost  the love of my life but he decided to use a vehicle to do it.Mine was do to my parents and them not letting him see me and after a big fight,,he never got to say nuttin else to me and i never got to say good bye to him,,I got a call and was told over the phone,,and life has never been the same since,,just hang in there the lord will help you thru it.