Dr's appt 6/19

[W4amircale2]

I have been nervous since yesterday, not knowing what to expect... Well we know I have high NK cells, and Dh and I share the same DQ Alpha gene..., but I have 2, 4.1 genes, which makes it even harder, which means I got 1 from mom and 1 from dad...Dh only has 1, 4.1 and a 1.5..So I not only have the NK cells fighting to not let the embryo implant, I have the genes that do the same thing, unless Dh decides(his genes)to send that 1.5 gene!? Never thought it would be to complicated to have a baby!
The Dr, himself, said I can do what I can to help your body fight this but we may not win! It was very hard to hear this. My body has gone bonkers, and I will try to fight, but if I do treatment and it doesn't work, then I have to think about the IVF.
The treatment is Intro lipids, its fairly new, its like the IVIG, but food based and not blood based, goes in like a trans fusion and takes about 4hrs. The protocol would be, he would monitor me, go in day 3, check my ovaries, (he can give me clomid, if I want) monitor my O, with sticks, see a surge go in, check me and I will give myself the HCG shot, the natural way, have Sex 2x a day for 5 days..as my DH says, the doc gave him the RX, NOT FUNNY! LOL..
Then about 5-7 days after O, I go in to the office(in Manhattan) for the Intro Lipids and take Pregnozone..I am so looking forward to that one...as DH says, don't worry you'll get a fat ass! Great HUH!
Doc says just water weight!!!! OK, I guess I can deal with it! We will try this 3X, 3 cycles...Then we have to make a decision...2 patients this month PG with IVF and the Inrto Lipids, which is great!
He layed it all out there for us, if at which point we decide to do IVF, embryo's perfectly normal, because they test all of the embroys before they transfer, CGH, its called, and they don't implant, then its my uterus( a combo of NK cells, endo and the genes), and there is nothing left to do, but someone else carry our baby for us, and which point I know will never happen! So this is where we stand, hard to hear all in one day...
I am soooo trying to think +, and say yes, this is it..our time will come, but to hear all this, WHY US! And how did I get my son, well a miracle, my NK cells, were probably on the low side 8 yrs ago when we concieved, as time goes on they multiply and attack!

We went to lunch, dh hubby took the day off, after 3hrs sleep last night, and having to do a sample at 2:00am(TMI) because it was the last test for him, DNA Fragmentation of his sperm, it had to go in the fridge and it was hangin next to the milk lol, I took a pic to keep for our journey, the things we have to do, u want something so bad, that just comes easy to some people who don't even care!!!!! Slept for 3 hrs, I was completely drained!
I need a VACATION! Not to mention, now all these appointments, whats going to happen with my job, I have to talk to my Doc(boss)...that shall be fun!

I would love to just close my eyes and wake up, and all is better!

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[momsomeday1113]

Jun. 19, 2008 at 6:01 PM That is a lot to sink in...hearing your sdtory makes me feel blessed!  I can't imagine how you are feeling...Iam sorry!  if there is anything that I can do, please let me know.  you are in my  thoughts and prayers and I have found myself asking why me, why us a lot lately.  I am here for you! 

[fstrmomto3]

Jun. 19, 2008 at 6:33 PM WOW that is a lot to take in!  Just breathe...easier said then done I know...You are in my thoughts always!!

[larissacst]

Jun. 19, 2008 at 7:26 PM

the RX is a tad funny. good luck with your journey. what we will do for our child(ren) is amazing. even before they are born

[foofoomommy]

Jun. 19, 2008 at 11:23 PM Wow, I bet that is ALOT to try and absorb!!!  I will continue praying for you.  I know you want this very much. May God be with you and bless you with another miracle!!!!