Silent Ethan

[Nack]

Hooray, Ethan just graduated from Kindergarten.  I was a little confused on how they were going to do it.  Ethan is the only Autistic/ Special needs Kindergartner at his school.  However it didn't matter, I was jazzed, getting him dressed in his fancy clothes.  My mind was racing, I needed to get balloons and maybe some flowers, even though Ethan could probably care less, I wanted to show up with those things anyway.  Off he went to school with his gel back hair and shining shoes.  I get to the school auditorium and there they all were, sixty bright eyed Kindergartner's.  Wow there are a lot of kids, I thought.  You could see all the proud parents taking pictures and waving at their little offspring's.  I spotted Ethan right away, he was the one with the biggest glow, my little angel.  The teachers all talked and the children sang songs they learned through out the year, but my son, sat there quietly.  I occasionally moved around trying to get a great picture, and there Ethan never let his eyes off of me.  The children all wiggled, laughed and sang off beat and the parents ate it up like pie.  My baby did not sing nor did he gesture the lyrics like the children did.  The room got louder with a combination of fidgety kids and bragging parents.  The principle had to hush the kids three times.  Not my boy, he was perfect, sitting with his hands on his lap overlooking the audience completely focused on me.  He doesn't sing those songs but he was singing just to me, he didn't clap on beat but he was cheering for me.  For a brief moment I stood there listening  to the silence of my son's love.  We forget that the first language we ever spoke was silence.  The communication a mother has with her unborn baby or infant is not with voice or hearing it's pure love.  Ethan gives me that, even when the room is louder than I can stand, he still plays his song on my heart.  That incredible gift of inner touch magically from my silent Ethan. 

[PammyK]

Jun. 20, 2008 at 10:40 PM That is so sweet!

[Charlies_mommy]

Jun. 20, 2008 at 10:42 PM That truely is beautiful! Congradulations to your son! :D

[CatFan]

Jun. 21, 2008 at 1:48 PM Reading this literally brought tears to my eyes.  Thank you!

[Angiesmoon]

Jul. 3, 2008 at 3:11 AM

Wow, how beautiful way to try to explain what you can only feel in your heart, thanks for sharing your feeling with us and wishing you well. Congratulations to Ethan. Love.

[YAJALEX]

Jul. 11, 2008 at 5:13 PM truely beautiful thanks for sharing.