life update

[mommything03]

where should i start.  life has been rough the last few months, but it is getting better.  on 5-30 i got a tat to remember my little boy (RIP my angel) and next week i will be getting another one, to finish off his rememberance tat, the first one, pic already in, has his name and is hands, birthdate, and his feet. my next one is going to finish it off. my daughter got a necklace with me and my little step sister and it came in 3 parts to the saying best friends forever well morgan got the best, my stepsister got the friends and i got forever, well it didn't really mean anything to me at the time, but now as i look at it it does.  the necklace is a little angel frog head with wings and it says forever, well what i am going to do with it is have it put under the one i already have, and it is going to say "forever my baby". 

also we have got the head stone for my mother and my son and then my brothers also. they are both going up we hope by monday (from what they have said).  my brother has his own spot in baby land, and right now all it has is the cement marker from 1980 on it, his name is fading and i had to do it for my mom.  and as for the other one, i put both my mother and my son on the same plaque, i had to, they both ment the world to me and i wanted to put it out there for everyone to see how much i felt for them. my blood family thinks it is a waste of money that could be better spent else ware, ok where, what better place could it be spent, ( i am making payments on it and it is not all at once like they though) i want something that i can go to and just sit there if i want and talk to both of them.  yes the ashes (both are cremated) are not there nor will they ever be. but still i would like some place to go and show our other kids who and what these people were to them.

morgan lost her first tooth, man was it scary and now it is still scary for me to see, i am use to seeing her with a full mouth of teeth, now she has one missing, and one more about to go too.  but morgan goes in to her dr on july 25 for her missed 4 year check up and also a surery consult. she will be going in to get posibly 4 teeth removed due to cavities.  but for sure one will be removed, and a spacer will be placed. 

i started a new/old job about a month ago, and i am so loving it, i have worked at a few different group homes and so far all of them feel like home, and that is hard to say. i do have one house that i am at normaly, and love it there.  my clients are like my family.  i am a graveyard staff, and for the most part i don't get to see my clients, i have only seen one of my clients(awake) maybe 3 times in the last month or so. this client was one of the first that i had worked with the last time i was at that house.  she is a very sweet person.  and as a graveyarder i have the orpertunity to work at different house to make up my 40+ hours a week if i need them. i love the work, that i do.  it is one of the most rewarding, almost as much as being a mother is.  you get to see the clients grow and prosper as much as we can help them. 

well as of tuesday we now have an addition to our house hold.  my sister had her baby, taylor michael was born at 11:04 am at 7 lbs 11.5 oz  with a full head of hair. she had indugestion almost 24/7 all the way up till delivery.  he is sooooo cuuuuute. (you can't tell i am a proud auntie can you? lol) 

i have had numerous people ask me if i was ok with having my nephew going to be living with me, and at one point i would have said no, but i am going on ifs here.  if my sister was not here, if i didn't loose my baby, if, if, if, if....... but i know that i am where i am in this mostly in part to her.  she has been my rock in so many hard places, and vice versa.  i love her so much, and even today i told one of her nurse that if 2 people could choose to be twins then that would be me and her.  i feel so close to her that most people think we are joined at the hip, well if i could i would, that is how i feel about my sister, I LOVE YOU COURTNEY.  courtney was there the day we lost our son, she was there for me when i needed her and some how she could tell when i needed her, when to leave me alone and when i said to but she never did.  i don't know how to say it any better than that.  she is my rock, in thick and thin, in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, and even death will not take us a part. 

ok i will close for now, all my love

[mysticalchick12]

Jul. 9, 2008 at 11:47 AM i lovedd  reading your post very beautiful and i love the idea of putting both names !!!  i wish i could wright post but i never know what to put i love to wright stories but the same thing dont know where to begin in high school ( my fav part of my life ) i wrote a story it was 20 -30 pages and my dad stole it  i was sooooo upset a few of my friends read it and loved it too    man ive been telling my family i was coming down for 2 mths for the fourth they didnt know dakota was down there but my younger sister was telling me for those 2 mths she had cloths and toys for me well found out this weekend she was having a garage sale with all those cloths and toys she wanted me to buy them that pissed me off its not like she needed the money i NEEEEEDDDD the cloths i didnt bother going to her house and she didnt even call or anything it showed how she really is oh welll    me and my hubbys love grew this weekend and its getting better and better ....ttyl