Church

[Amanda420GT]

I returned back to church today. I haven't been there in 3 weeks because it is where I married my husband. He is divorcing me now. I thought I was ready and strong enough to handle it. I guess there is no fooling God. I cried the entire service just thinking about standing there with him. It is where he promised me forever in front of God and everyone there. He also promised to raise our children in the way of the Lord as they were dedicated there. He broke all three of those promises. How do I move on? Even though everyone and everything is telling me to, I can't. Now, the congregational care Pastor. The one who married us was demoted and taken off the church's payroll not a year after losing his wife to illness. Is it coincidence that the day I return the pastor who married us was fired? He is the sweetest man I have ever met. He is the one who started me on my walk with the Lord. He wasn't asked to leave the church or anything but it was just too much. I usually sit alone in church unless my husband's grandmother goes. She didn't feel like going today so I sat down by myself and started to read the bulletin. I was immediatley grabbed up by an older woman from the church and told to come sit with her. I did as I was told and I know God planned it. I can just picture myself alone in church balling. I seriously had to fight the urge to get up and run away. That is when she grabbed my hand and lead me to the alter. When I sat back down there were no more tears until I had to hug my favorite pastor and hear how sorry he was for what I was going through. He just lost his job and he is worried about me! He started crying with me. Then I had to leave. I hope next time is easier. I am determined to not give up the church just because I have been let down. I haven't really cried a whole lot over the situation. I think I was in shock for 3 weeks because since I went to a concert I have been this way. I cry over anything and everything. I just wanted to ask my husband a question. It didn't even relate to our divorce. I sent him a text that said can i ask you a stupid question without you getting mad. His reply was no the divorce is not because of another woman. I didn't even ask the question!

[jennie713]

Jun. 29, 2008 at 9:12 PM

Hugs hugs and more hugs.   You should have some kind of peace knowing the Lord is watching over you and he will take care of you. Keep going to church if you can. It will make you stronger.

Jen in RI

[MSugarKane]

Jun. 30, 2008 at 7:45 AM Hugs to you! You need them!