I am on cloud 9 right  now! Let me start at the beginning....

For my baby's memorial (week 9 counseling) I wrote a poem and I read it. The women at my local women's center really liked it and asked it they could have a copy. Of course I said yes! Then they asked if they could put it in their newsletter they send out! Yes! Well, after I had finished my counseling I got their newsletter and saw that I could put a bassinett from them in my church and get donations like diapers, clothes, etc for the women they help. So I called and asked about it and I went in on Tuesday to pick it up. I met Sheila and she took me back to get the bassinett. She asked me my name and I told her. She said it sounded familiar. I told her that I had just finished the post-abortive counseling there and she's like that was you!? She asked how I was doing and I said I was doing great.

She then told me about a girl that Holly, the director at the center, had been talking to. The girl was considering an abortion and had the appointment all set for yesterday. They had given her all the information but she was set to go through with it. As a last attempt Holly gave her my poem that she had with her for some reason. She told the girl that she didn't have to read it but it may help. The girl took my poem. That's all that Sheila knew and we both hoped that she would decide not to do it.

Well, I had a message on my phone today from Holly and I called her back. She said she had heard I was the one that had finished the counseling and I told her yes. She then told me of the girl coming in too. Well today that girl came into the women's center and said "guess what? I'm gonna have a baby!" PRAISE GOD! My poem help to change her mind! When Holly told me it made me so unbelievably happy!!! I am so glad God used my poem to help save a baby's life. My heart is just beaming! Well, I already posted it but I'll put it in here too! 

Here's my poem that made the difference!!

I Will Be Your Voice

When I look back on that time

It fills me with regret.

The day I had an abortion-

A day I’ll never forget.

I should have been so glad

To be carrying you in me,

But instead I was filled with fear.

So scared and so lonely.

I thought my only option

Was to get rid of you.

It’s not what I really wanted.

I couldn’t face what was true.

Instead of telling my parents

I made the dreaded call.

I didn’t want to disappoint them.

I thought it was best for all.

The day soon came to get it done.

The memory is just a blur.

They said you weren’t a baby.

Just a burden they would cure.

I woke up in recovery

So cold and so numb.

I didn’t realize at the time

Exactly what I had done.

Five years I have denied you,

But no longer can that be.

Your sister opened up my eyes

To the reality I now see.

I murdered you that day-

December 19th of 2002.

But I know that God has forgiven me.

He’s made my life brand new.

No longer am I filled

With all the grief and shame.

He took it all away from me

And I’ll never be the same.

I know that you’re in heaven

Looking down from up above,

But I wish you were here with me,

My baby, whom I love.

It hurts that we’re apart right now

But God still needs me here.

Though He’s preparing a room for me

In a place with no more tears.

Dear Jordan, Mommy’s sorry

For making the wrong choice.

I promise I’ll make it up to you.

                                                                         I will be your voice.

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