WHAT HAVE I LOST THAT I WISH I STILL HAD?

[Our_Ava_Louise]

I REALLY WISH THAT I COULD HAVE MY MOM BACK, IS MISS HER ALOT!

I KNOW THAT SHE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND ALL, BUT I WISH SHE COULD PLAY HER GRAND DAUGHTER.  ANY I WISH SHE COULD BE HERE FOR QUESTIONS I HAVE HAD TOO IN LIFE.  I HAVE MADE SOME PRETTY BAD ROADS IN MY LIFE.  I KNOW WE LEARN FROM OUR MISTAKES, BUT I ALWAYS WONDER WHY AND TRY TO FIGURE THEM OUT.

I STILL HAVE MY DAD, BUT ITS NOT THE SAME.  

EVEN IF I COULD JUST GIVE HER ONE LAST HUG AND A KISS, I KNOW  THAT WOULDN'T BE ENOUGH I WOULD NEVER WANT HER TO LEAVE AGAIN.  SHE PASSED AWAY WHEN I WAS 18.  SHE WAS ALSO SICK.  SHE WENT BLIND WHEN SHE WAS 28, AND HAD KIDNEY FAILURE.  WHILE SHE WAS HAVING HER FIRST TRANSPLANT SHE HAD A STROKE AND COULDN'T WALK ANYMORE AND TALKED WITH A SLURRED SPEACHED.  AFTER A YEAR THE KIDNEY FAILED AND SHE WAS PUT ON A WAITING LIST FOR TWO YEARS AND THEN SHE PASSED ON AFTER SHE HAD A BLOOD CLOT IN HER BRAIN THAT EXPLODED.  SHE SIGNED PAPER SAYING THAT SHE DIDN'T WANT TO BE REVIVED IF SHE WAS TO EVER GO INTO A COMA AGAIN FROM ANYTHING.  SO THATS THAT!  YEAH I MISS HER ALOT. ANGIE