Premonitions

[amethystrse]

I seem to get two forms of premonitions.  One is the "OMG something is going to happen but I don't know what" feeling.  Once it even had me in hysterics.  The other is simply a dream and then a few days later the dream comes true.  Unfortunatly I don't remember the dream until a second before it comes true, leading to a realy uncomfortable DejaVu feeling.

There are two times where my premonitions were about something really big. 

 The first was when my son (now 7) was 4 months old.  We were living in California at the time and my family lives in New York.  So we went to NY to visit.  My grandfather was in the hospital at the time.  It was nothing new since he had had 12 heart attacks, 8 strokes, and 3 open heart surgerys since he was 30.  Though this time they couldn't tell if it was a heart attack or a stroke as he was so weak that the tests to determine which it was would've killed him.  We went with the baby to visit him and he seemed fine.  However there was something off.  People have a sort of spark to them that shows they're alive.  I had only noticed that when I first saw someone dead and noticed they didn't have that spark anymore.  Well while at the hospital I noticed my grandfather didn't have the spark.  He was alive and talking and smiling.  But something was already missing.  It was as if he was dead.

 Anyway, a few days later we had to leave.  We were only able to stay for a week.  The morning of our flight I went into hysterics.  I was crying uncontrollably.  I couldn't leave.  The thought of leaving sent me into a full panic attack.  Since I had had premonitions before my husband and my mother asked if something was going to happen to the plane.  I didn't think so.  I had no problem with my husband leaving.  I just knew I couldn't leave.  My mother called the airline and had my ticket changed so I would stay for another week.  As soon as she hung up the phone the panic attack stopped, as if it never happened.

My husband left and his flight was uneventful.  A few days later I was beginning to feel silly.  Then we recieved a phone call that my grandfather had passed away.  My flight back was for the day after the funeral.  I have no doubt in my mind that part of me knew he was going to die.  Aside from the fact that he didn't quite look right when I visted him.

The second major premonition I have had isn't as severe.  It was about 4 months ago.  I woke up one morning with the worst anxiety I've ever felt.  I was literally paralized with fear.  It took all of my strength to get out of bed.  After the kids left for school I tried to do my usual and clean up.  But the fear was so strong that I spent most of the day on the couch rocking.  I had never had an anxiety attack that bad.  I had this strange feeling that something was going to happen and it had to do with the kids.

This went on for a few days.  Each day it got a little worse.  On the third day, at 8:30 pm, there was a knock at the door.  It was CPS.  Someone at my son's school had called with bogus complaints.  The house was a mess because I had such bad anxiety that I was barely able to keep it clean.  The social worker inspected everything around the house and asked a ton of questions.  My daughter was in bed but my son was still awake.  She asked him questions too.  Then she left.  Two weeks later we had a follow up visit with another social worker.  However this time I was prepared and the house was clean.  She also inspected everything and talked with my son.  I haven't heard from them since and I'm assuming the case was closed.

I'm not sure why the anxiety was so bad.  It had gone away shortly after the social worker came over the first time.  Nothing happend as a result of the visit.  The charges were bogus (I mean come on.  My son doesn't habitually urinate in his room or play with dangerous tools in the tool sheds!  Nor do I allow him to smoke!!!)  So there wasn't any real threat.

 All the other premonitions I've had have been minor compared to the above.  Simple things really.  Dreams about meeting someone that comes true about a month later.  As soon as I see the person I remember it.  I had one where I was meditating and I saw a man's face.  I knew that he was the man I was going to marry.  He wore a circlet with moons on it around his head and a green shirt.  I was 16 at the time.  When I was 19 I met my (now) husband.  I didn't remember the vision until about 2 weeks after we met.  It was Samhain (Halloween) and we both got dressed up.  He wore a green ren shirt and he had a circlet with moons on it which he gave to me to wear.  I still have the circlet. 

 There are so many other times.  Mostly I get the dreams or visions.  I don't know why.  It just sort of happens.  I've tried learning to control it but never was able to. 

[Jai_0713]

Jul. 9, 2008 at 9:24 AM That's almost exactly how I have my premonitions too, when you just KNOW that something is going to happen, but you don't know what it is until it does, right?  I definitely understand the dream one too, but I also get them through fidgeting with things and just seeing crystal clear images of something right around the corner.

[Stephanie101979]

Jul. 9, 2008 at 9:45 AM oh my gosh... glad it all turned out ok

[MyLinna]

Jul. 10, 2008 at 12:18 AM happy to hear that everything is ok...its a hard gift to live with though...sometime i just would like not to know things.