just another day of a stressed out mom

[shylomama]

      ok i have had the longest 5days and its only wensday  omg  logan has been very very active and cranky but hes doin good at school and talking more but every 5 seconds he turns up the tv to holy crap loud the i gotta go and say no stop and turn it day i been doin that for 2days he was eating a snack in his room he doesnt like to eat at the table sometymes so i gave him a bowl o smartfood he loves popcorn and the adults were in the living room and i can see him in his room so i guess he wanted more he doesnt or cant say mama more or ask for help so he just climbed over his 3foot gate did not even make a sound walks right in the living room and picks up the rest of the popcorn and starts eating it looking around i wqas like no logan you cant jump the gate you can get hurt he has no fear and that is so scary  even when he runs around his room yup it like a race that is just him  runnin in a  circle and trips over things he should see lioke his ride on zebra thqats been sittin in the same spot for a year he just forget and bam fell over it didnt see it at all .my gal shy yelled at me shes a moody gal  very wise but   i had to punish her to as she crying logan hears he cry and wonders what happen he starts to freak out kicking screaming kicking toys throwing things tryin to push me qas i try to help  them both  but the fits end and as was well for a lil bit everyday i get stronger i been feeling like poo tired more so i cant sleep iam not eating good iam getting depressed i have court w my ex and i just want it over i hate court and i need to bring logan o the fun  i love my kids more then anything and i wouldnt change them but i would like to just feel better i hate feeling like iam losing control  i love being in control well atleast of my life and kids  so that it iam looking ahaed to a better day and wish me luck at court .shy