Becoming a SAHM

[luckystar8131]

I have been thinking about it all day long and I've deceided that once the summer is over and we get into September then I am quitting my job to stay at home with Ty.  I just can't do it.  How can I let someone that isn't even family see my child more than I do.  He is going to daycare 40 hours a week even though I only work 30.  I get him up at 7am and then feed him his bottle.  Get in the car and take him to daycare.  I go to work and don't pick him up until 5:30.  Run home to hurry up and cook dinner and feed him.  Play with him then at 7:00 give him a bath, feed him his bottle and put him to bed.  That's 2 hours a day I get to see him.  Then all day Thursday but he takes a nap twice during the day.  So maybe like 7 1/2 hours I see him.  Then again like 7 1/2 hours on Sat and Sun.  And that's if I don't have any other plans.  So total I see him about 32 hours a week.  That is not enough.  He needs his mommy.  I mean I love his daycare and they are very nice there.  He seems to like it, even though it was the first day.  He didn't sleep well at all though.  Only 1 hour all day.  He was so tired.  I felt so bad.  Maybe then in the spring (after a real vacation) we can have another baby.  I just can't keep working and sending him to daycare because it's only the first day and it's breaking my heart.  I know that I have been working for 4 months but at least it was my dad so he was spending time with family.  It was a little better.  I know that we can make it work too.  Once Larry gets transfered home then maybe I can find something just part time close to home working when Larry is home.  It would get me out of the house and give Ty and Larry some male bonding time.  I don't know how any mom works without feeling like a bad mommy.  I mean, if you do it then that is great for you.  I wish I could but ny whole life now revolves around him...at least for now that he is so little.  I can't miss anymore of his life!

[valentine921]

Jul. 16, 2008 at 9:21 AM i agree with you it sucks... the first day jordan screamed the entire day.. i could hear him screaming and i couldn't even run in there to consol him... he only slept 30 mins..lol... today they called and said they didn't have room for him so if u can't find a babysitter dont come in.. so i lied so i can stay home with him....lol.. i wish it were thursday tho so i would have something to do..lol... but i understand how u feel.. hope things work out how u want it to in the long run.