Im not sure why I feel the need to hang on to him, he doesn’t do anything for me. Is it because I feel trapped? I am a single mother of 2. I do it all on my own. I am not asking for sympathy. I am only asking for love and assurance. I get neither. He doesn’t text me to see how my day is, he doesn’t txt me to tell me he loves me. But he does txt every other bitch in the book. I really want to just end it. But I don’t know how..everytime I get like this I do it and then regret it…why? I am a beautiful, successful mother. I do it all on my own. Like I said before he does nothing for me. So why cant it be easy to walk away. Hes 3000 miles away for good grief!! I want so bad to just leave…But I keep thinking…what if. I keep thinking, how can I raise my son alone…then I say, Ive done my daughter for 7 years…im so lonely and upset and I am not sure how to cope with it. I keep repeating to myself that I need to leave, I need to move on…but he keeps pulling me back. I do love him and I do want a family with him…but he cant come to CT until next YEAR…he is on probation and cant leave…I told him in a txt msg that if he would stop talking to those girls then we would be fine…but you know what…we wouldn’t.. and he WONT. He doesn’t care for me. He doesn’t want me. He needs me….why cant I just let go…I can come up with all the reasons why I should and all the reason why I cant…im stuck in the middle wondering….why.