just missing you

[Angelfairie]

Well just sitting here thinking. Knowing that I only have 17 more days till my hubby is gone for a year. As the tears fall from my eyes I know this is what he has to do, but it does no make it any easier. Now we are not sure he will be able to come home at all with in this year which makes it even harder. Feeling so a lone and dead on the in side with no one here. Missing his hugs, kisses and our time together even our shower and talks I mean we don't do anything with each other. How am I going to do this a lone? Knowing how hard it is going to be for him as well. Knowing he is going to be missing his family as well. Him not having anyone over there, this just makes it harder for me. Him being alone. Scared that his babies don't for get him while he gone. Every body say you are strong you can do it. But they have no clue how I am feeling in side or what is going on in my heart. People say we will be here for you, but if they are not around now. Then why would they be around when he gone. All I know is I love you so much it hurts and you being gone is going to be so hard. God just take care of my teddy bear.Waiting till we are back in each other arms. Back as together as a family.