MY ANGEL JOSEPH

[acextreme956]

This is my story I will try and make it as short as possible. I met my husband when I was only 15 years of age, we really hit it off. We got married and started having our beautiful family. Started with my daughter Bianca who is 8 years old will be 9 in November. Then my son Frankie jr who is 7 Will be 8 in April , then my son Gabriel who is 5 just turned 5 in July ! it took us 12 years to have our three children ! We decided that we needed just one more to complite our family we always wanted a big family, so when I became pregnant for the fourth time we were really happy ! This was it no more after this one we said. So sure enough our son Joseph was born On March 26, 2008 and right after he was born that same day I had my tubes tied ! He was perfect, he was spoiled because he was our last baby , we did everything for him I even quit my job to stay home with Joseph I wanted to spend every second with him and just watch him grow. He was born in Texas, but we are originally from Southern California. So when he was born we wanted to move back to California, so that we would be with all our family! So when Joseph was 2 in a half months old I drove to Cali with him and my other 3 children ! My husband stayed behind in Texas to finish on the packing and also he was waiting to get transfered out here for his job ! It was hard for my husband being so far from his family but we did it. My husband would talk everyday with Joseph over the phone and sing to him. He would tell him how much he missed him and that daddy would be with him soon to hold him ! On July 1st, 2008 My husband called me that he was on his way out to Cali and he was already on the road to come and join the family ! I was so happy and exited more for my husband because i knew how much he missed our kids and especially our baby Joseph ! He talked to Joseph on the phone and was telling him that daddy was on his way to see him ! and he even sang to him. Then we hung up the phone, I took Joseph outside because it was a nice day, my sister was there and I remember telling her how happy Joseph was that day ! He had not been fussy at all, he was just really happy and then it was time for his nap ! I gave him to my mom and told her " okay mom Joseph is ready to take his nap ". My mom took him from me and layed him down, I never saw how she layed him down. She came out of the room and said okay he is taking his nap now ! so I was there at my moms just having a good time and waiting for Joseph to take his nap so I can go home and wait for my husband to get home from his long trip ! after a while I noticed Joseph was taking to long so I decided to go and wake him up ! I walked in the room and the 1st thing I noticed was he was facing down on a pillow ! I ran and picked him up he was warm , but pale and I blew some air into his nose to see if he would react, but he did nothing ! I screamed for my mom and she ran in the room, she started screaming I ran out to call 911 ! they must have taken about 3 minutes to get there mean while my sister was giving him cpr ! but it seemed like time stood still and I just wanted someone to tell me that he was fine ! but they didn't they flew him to the hospital that was down the street from us. I got there just a little bit after they took him ! They took me into the quite room ! I was already shaking and crying I knew deep down that it was not good news what they were going to tell me ! I called my husband and I told him Everything. He broke down and was yelling at me .
Then the doctor came in and told me what every mother fears the most ! My son was dead. How could I call my husband and tell him that his baby was gone ! But I did and we just cryed on the phone there is no words ! Our other children were there when all this happened and they saw everything, they were crying and yelling out their little brothers name out ! I had to be strong for them ! and thats my story. Everything changed that day I miss my son everyday and everything I do I miss him and I love him so very much/

[EchoingAngel]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 1:35 AM

my heart is breaking for you and you will be in my prayers..

[supermom_1969]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 1:42 AM

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry for your loss! That had to be traumatic for you and your family! Your in my thoughts and prayers! If you ever need to talk you know where you can find me... take care hun

[Lb128f]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 2:05 AM

I am so sorry....our thoughts and prayers are with you all and Joseph.

[Crashmonster1]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 3:10 AM

I am so sorry for your loss.  If you need to talk please know that I am a mom who lost her daughter to SIDS at 5 months and 10 days old so I understand the pain even though I do not know your pain just know I will be here if you need to talk.  Take care

[AmberZ...]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 11:45 AM

Love to you and your family.... Lots of prayers coming your way!!!

[2kjnbabiez]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 11:47 AM

I am saying a prayer for you all.

[wolfswife]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 12:17 PM

I'm so sorry you had to endure this great tragedy.  My daughter passed from SIDS in October of 1992....She would have been 16 this coming July 26th (Saturday).  There are no words to explain how you feel when this happens.  If you need to "talk" I'm here.  I live with the good memories of my baby along with the "bad", but I know she is still with me everyday! 

Although it seems impossible now, you WILL learn to live with this....you will NEVER get over it, but you'll get to a point where you can accept it.  I wish I could tell you how long that will take, but I can't.  If you do believe in a higher being (whether it be God or someone/thing else) ask for strength to get you through the hard days.  You did NOTHING wrong.  Heaven needed a beautiful, happy baby boy, so your baby Joseph was chosen.  That is what I truly believe.  God needed my Stephanie for something very important, and I was blessed with her for 10 glorious weeks!

I'm here if you need me.

[Teresa16135410]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 1:06 PM

I wish I lived near you and could just help with the other 3 or get you out of the house once and a while. Gosh I wish I could do anything!!!! Not that anything could ever change the past events. But possiably help the grief for you all. I went through this with a very close friend of mine and their baby. Theres no right words. And it was one of the hardest things I've ever experianced to feel like my hands were so tied, nothing I could really do for them. Nothing but just be there to hear the tears. I send you all my love!!!! Please know God does not do this. He does not "take" them. I am in such tears right now for you. And I send all my love. So if you want to vent, cry, be angry, anything, please feel free to message me.

TERESA 

[LYNDELOU]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 1:39 PM

I am so sorry for your loss.....May your little angel rest in peace...You will all be in my thoughts and prayers!

[mom2wy]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 1:40 PM

Hun I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little boy!! I know it is a hard time for you right now but your sweet little boy is in the arms of the Lord. I dont have the magic words to make your hurt go away, but if you ever need to talk or just need someone to listen I am here. HUGS Janet