Broken Again

[allykittee1994]

Just when i think everything is going right everything goes wrong.  I try and try but it never seems to work out right.  I am broken again all i want to do is cry.  I try sohard to please everyone but myself but it is never enough  I can give and give until im empty inside.  I just want to cry and cry.  It feels like there is always a rain cloud over m y head.   I can give it my all but it will never be enough.  When will all this anguish stop.  I pray my hardest try to do whats right.  Yet here i am again with hart full of pain and a heart that cant be fixed... It has been broken so many times.  Im not sure it will ever be right again.  For once i wish things would work out right.   I sit here and wonder every day if tomorrow will be better or the next day.  It is for a little while then bam it is happening all over again.  I dont think this is how my life is suppose to be and wonder why God left me at here at all.  If not for my two kids i would be gone.   If he has a purpose for me then i wish i knew what it was.  He left me to deal with all this pain the pain of loosing a friend my darling son my mother a yeatr later and a husband who dosent give a darn.  But why....  So my heart can be broken  again......

[NannyB.]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 9:06 AM

I do not know what the problems have been in your life, but I do know that there has been a purpose for every event and that there is a purpose for your life.  Perhaps what you need more than anything else is for there to be someone who will remind you of the great worth and potential that lies within you.  Heartaches and pain are sadly a very real part of life on this earth, but they are also the tools God uses to make us into the special people that we become.  I challenge you today to sit down and write down a list of everything positive about you and your life, to be thankful for those things and to think about them.  Let all the negative thoughts go and concentrate on the positives, and you will begin to see your world in a whole new light, probably before this day is done.  God bless.

[moemoesmom]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 9:17 PM

I know how you feel. Just when things start to go right, they go wrong. I've been there several times. However, I do truly believe that things happen for a reason. I don't know the reason, but hon things will get better with time. When you fall you just have to get back up and start again. I see alot of myself in what you wrote. You have a lot to be thankful for too. You have two beautiful kids that need you and love you.

[Amy614]

Jul. 24, 2008 at 10:13 PM

HUGS!

[acextreme956]

Jul. 30, 2008 at 3:11 AM

i am so sorry for what you are going through ! in a way i understand you about trying so hard yet it seems like nothing in this world can make anything go right ! after the loss of my sweet little angel i feel the same way !