Update on Evan

[allen8500]

Well,  we got the call that we have been so anxious about. The Madison County Coronor's Office called us in for a meeting to go over Evan's pathology report. What we heard wasn't exactly the news we wanted to hear, but then any news regarding Evan's death is hard to hear.

Anwyay, the final pathology report stated that the cause of Evan's death was a viral infection. That is right, A VIRAL INFECTION! This is something that everyone gets right? Then why did my child die? They said that the viral infection was located in his lungs and possibly spread into his heart causing it to suddenly stop.  This is so hard for me to accept being the fact that such a simple thing could take the life of my beautiful child.

Right now Nathan and I are pretty numb. How could this happen? The coronor's have stated that it would be a good idea for us to have the genetic testing done on Evan, just to see if maybe there was and underlying cause as to why his body could not fight a simple virus. So, that is our next step. We have been told that the results from genetic testing could take 10 months. This is such and agonizing wait! I guess this is where I just have to put my trust in God and hope for the best. 

As the weeks creep by, the devestation of our reality has started to set in. Our beautiful little boy that we love so much is gone! Two months ago we were going to T-ball games, and now we find ourselves sitting in a cemetary wondering why this happened. We miss him so much!! Noah keeps asking us to have the angels bring Evan back. That is so difficult for us to hear him say. He is so lost without Evan. My heart just breaks every time I see him playing by himself, thinking that Evan should be right by his side. They should be running around the dining room table with their spiderman costumes on!

Everytime Noah sees me crying his says to me, "stop crying mommy, I will make it better". Little does he know that he really does make things better. His little smile makes Nate and I feel so much better. He keeps us going day after day.

I know that each day, God is getting us through. Slowly we have to begin to create a new life, a life without Evan here on earth. This is such a harsh reality. There is truly a saddness in our lives that will never go away. I love Evan so much and will continue to believe that God has a plan.

[Kiter]

Jul. 26, 2008 at 11:46 PM

{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

 

[Queenie02]

Jul. 26, 2008 at 11:51 PM

Oh Honey I'm so sorry this has happened!! God Bless you and your family!! Evan is your angel and will watch over you I believe that. You are so strong and your faith will get you through this horrible tragedy!! Again Im sorry!! HUGS LOL

[Lb128f]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 5:54 AM

Saying a prayer for Evan and your family. I am so sorry.

[elwalters77]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 9:05 AM

How horrible and scary.  I am thinking of you.

[JennaInAlaska]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 3:53 PM

How sad, horrible and extremely scary!

[bellz4]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 5:16 PM

This is so Horrible a VIRAL INFECTION it is so unfair. I can't believe this has happened to your family. I am so sorry and i will continue to Pray for you and your family.  Remember if you need someone to talk to i am here. Please message me!!!

[aggiewife]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 8:30 PM

My heart and prayers go out to you and ur family....

[starestrada]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 9:14 PM

((((HUGS))))

[newmeme07]

Jul. 28, 2008 at 4:30 AM

That's awful.  I hope things get better for you and your family.  I know it's very hard to handle the loss of a child. 

[mombug]

Jul. 31, 2008 at 12:08 AM