To My CafeMom Friends

[ealexh]

I'm sorry I have been MIA for a while.  I have so much going on.  It's an excuse I use fervently and it seems I've been programmed to use it when I do not get much accomplished.  I miss all of you and can't wait to get my shit together so that I can come on and join in the chorus.  Okay, it's not really a chorus... thank goodness because I'm a terrible singer.

Anyway, as if my week wasn't going bad enough already, I had one of the worst weekends.  FUCK, FUCK, FUCK.  Now that I got that off my chest...  Work is absolutely terrible!  I frequent that excuse, as well, but it doesn't seem to get any easier.  Brenda and I run the corporation we work for.  Our life is in this company.  We don't leave home without it... literally.  We have been camping a lot this summer, but never without work.  Whether it's taking the clients camping with us, being on call, or bringing my laptop... it's work.  My life is work.  Okay, I think you get the picture.

The reason I'm stressing this is because on Friday, I lost my life.  Granted, I still have my perfect family (and believe me, it is perfection), but I FORMATTED over my fuckin' jump drive; a drive that included the contents of my life (minus the family).  Two thousand, six hundred and thirty three files (just for work) had vanished.  Of course, it was my fault, but it was completely by accident.  In lieu of trying to erase and format a picture CD, I clicked on my jump drive.  Employee files, accounting, client files, county files, taxes, legal files, certifications, newsletters, memos and more... much, much more!  Above and beyond those 2,633 work files, I lost all of my personal files... school, my writing compilations, papercrafts, legal stuff and more... much, much more!

Enough about that... my health is bad.  I am only 27 and I have more problems than the average 80 year old.  I have been sick and tests showed numerous things.  My worse test result regarded testosterone.  My testosterone is extrememly high.  Brenda said, "Yep, you're a lesbian."  Was that supposed to make me laugh?  I had further testing that showed a cyst on my pancreas which could mean a few things.  I have had about $8,000 in testing done, literally, within the last couple of weeks.  In addition, I've started new medication which has made me balloon to ten pounds heavier in a week.  I suppose it could be worse, but I'll stick with the hypothyroidism, GERD, bipolar disorder, asthma, allergies, circulatory problems, granuloma anulaire...............

As if that wasn't bad enough, I just read a column in the newspaper regarding how "homosexuality is a danger to our children."  What the fuck?  Yes, my daughter will be one corrupt little girl because she has two moms.  Arrgghh!  You can rest assured that I have a rebuttal for that one.  The editor will be glad to her from me again.  I have many Christian friends, but it's the Christians that think they "know the answers" that really piss me off.  **middle finger sticking up**

In the meantime, I'll be piecing my life together.  I love you guys and hope to catch up soon!

Erica

[Mooska]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 6:10 AM

Wow....... I mean literally.... I am a web designer and yes my puter is my life so I totally understand ya! I am really sorry about your formatting deal....

I am also so sorry to hear of your health issues again really I am sorry and praying for the best for you, hang in there!

As for the homosexual lifestyle and the issues there, yes I been debating that end but that is purely debate! But I love the people even if I do not agree with their choices or such there are many things I do that people do not like, ha I like to argue LOL.... But again hang in there and just remember, we all have things we are ashamed of that we do, smoking, drinking, maybe someone is bi polar, belimic you never know but we all still need support no matter what :)

[Nanaleena]

Jul. 27, 2008 at 1:13 PM

OMG!!  You have had a week of hell!  Think I will backup all my pics.  If those were lost I would be frantic.  Can't image loosing the numerous work files that you did.

Sorry to hear about the health issues.  Hopefully the end results won't be that bad.  Will say some prayers for you.

Why can't people just leave those with a different life style alone?  As long as there is love in the family, what the hell does it matter what life style you live by?  I watched a program once on children of homosexual parents.  There was a family of 2 moms and another of 2 dads.  Both children felt that they were more loved than their peers and had less issues in the home.  They thought it was great having 2 moms/dads.  Hang in there and remember you have friends that support you.