Life..

[mommyjammie]

Well I dont even know where to start life has been to say the least interesting for the past little while with me I have been running around like a chicken with its head cut off..I have been dealing wtih cops and courts and crown and duity counsel as well as phone calls from a local Jail and trying to maintain my home..and I have been doing all of this my self, So well lets see it all started on July 18th my husbands birthday when he got picked up for being in breach of his cso I had been out shopping at the time picking up his birthday cake and something to make a nice birthday dinner I came home to find him and my pc gone..

As I walk into my bulding my mom meets me in the hall with her phone its my hubby calling from the jail he is going to be in holding cells till the following monday..This is alittle hard to handle but I figer wtf its just the weekend they will most likely release him with stiffer condishions on monday at least I can have the weekend to clean so saterday morning since I wake alittle depressed that we did not get to do anything for his birthday  I deside that since I dont have enough hair left to cut I will go get my tongue pirced again well that didnt help but I came home and worked on getting my house together like I had planed that friday to find him in jail...
I got that done in about 20 its amazing what you can do under stress so that left sunday to sit around and think not a fun thing to do when your husband is in Jail so anyway I get up monday morning and head down to the jail and end up haveing to sit there all day to find out that it is going to be remaned till today monday July 29 and he is going to be moved to jail the next day they have me go down to the police station to give my statement about what happens and inform me that if I dont aply for a sepershion that childrens aid wont leave me alone because they seen the holes in my walls from his tantrums and started asking if he hit me or was abusive to me and so on and so forth so now I am stuck aplying for a sepershion and I have yet to even talk to him since he was moved to the jail then on weds or thersday I finely get a call from him and find out that he has a broken Jaw and is now in the hospital part of the jail...
So I now stuck telling him at a time he must feel he needs me most that we can't be together anymore and it just rips my heart out as I do it he crys but thankfully takes it fairly well but still calls everyday till today and says I love you every time we talk I say it back because even though I am leaveing I really do still love him, How could I not he is the father of my little child anyway I remind him every time we talk that I have to go through with this sepershion hopeing he will get the hint and stop saying I love you because its to hard for me to come right out and ask him to stop and he just don't get it every time we talk I ask if he got his jaw fixed yet and he says no and when I call the jail they say they are just waiting for a bed at the hospital and cant do anything untill one comes up but it should not take this long to get one.. its now the 29 and we have been back to court to find out its remanded one more time because he dont got a lawyer set up yet its takeing leagel aid awhile to get him one so anyway we have to wait till next wedsday augest 6th befor we go back to court so that he has enough time to get a lawyer anyway he still has not had anything done for him regarding his jaw so tomorrow I have to call the ombence men  I am not sure what they are I just know they are even abouve the Jail and can get him help.
I am doing this because he is still leagely my husband and will forever be the father of my daughter and I will always love him we may not be able to be together anymore but that in no way means that I want to see him suffer.
So I am calling the ombence men today to see if there is anything they can do tawords getting his jaw fixed I hope they are able to help him in anyway I hope they can he looked so bad in court yesterday..
after court yesterday his moms bf called to see how things went and when I tould him that they remanded it till dave gets a lawyer because crow is asking for him to surve the rest of his cso in jail he tould me that is was my fault that he was in jail and that I had better call the ombanceman and see that he gets help or I had better watch myself.. I know its not my fault but with them blameing me everytime I turn around I am almost starting to bleave it you have no idea how hard that makes life..
I mean I got the internet in my name yes and he got busted because he was on the internet that was one of his cso restrictshions but I did NOT want to get the net I kept saying no that I didnt want it I would go to the internet to check my e mail and stuff and he just kept pushing and saying come on there is no way that anyone could find out I knew better and kept telling him that he could get in truble but he would know let up and I did not want anymore holes in my wall so I gave in and said fine and got it I knew in my heart that it was only a matter of time befor someone found out but I didnt think it would resalt in him sitting in jail with a untreated broken Jaw I mean come on every human on earth has rights to medical well at least in canada..anyway.
I am on hold right now with the ombanceman so I wont post this till I talk to them and am able to let you know if they can help him I mean whats the point in doing it in two posts although I will be giveing updates to help me keep my head together through this hole thing..
I am sure this post will be all over the place and I hope you can atlest get the jist of it I just have so much going on its hard to post a normal kept together post I am trying to get to much out at once lol..
well the ombanceman said to call another place and they tould me that they will check into things but they cant tell me what they find out because of privacy laws and crap so I am going to have to just hope that he calls back and let him know that someone is checking into it and hope that someone lets me know what they find out so that I can at least sleep peaceful at night...
I guess this is all I will wright on this post it has took me such a long time to wright and I dont remember if there was anything else that I needed to say though I am sure that once I post this a ton more stuff will pop into my head but what can ya do I have to clean the kitchen and go to a meeting today and find my way to the mall to do some shopping I guess I just wish I could have one day that I did not have any running around to do I just want one day to sit and think about things I mean I went for a family to a single mom over night with a 3 yr old its a real shock..
Hailey keeps asking for her daddy and saying she misses him and I dont know how to tell a 3 yr old that her daddy can't live with us anymore this is no fun at all I just for now keep telling her that he went on a trip but he misses her and loves her no matter where he is

[aggiewife]

Jul. 29, 2008 at 1:36 PM

it sounds to me like you and ur daughter deserve a better life....esp if he has a temper...not a way to grow up as a little girl why was he arrested?

[mommyjammie]

Jul. 29, 2008 at 2:27 PM

breach of a cso

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[Tusie]

Jul. 29, 2008 at 3:53 PM