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Jul. 23, 2008 at 12:47 AM by SYSTERANGEL2
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Hello everyone. I've been talking to my stbx and when I tried to explain what I'm going through in my head, he turned everything around on me. I've come to the realization that my lack of keeping the dishes done was because I was depressed that I'd have a nice and clean kitchen that was empty of food for me to eat. He was working at a famous casino in Las Vegas and they were paying him enough for us to pay rent, but not enough for us to by food for just the two of us. Hes then tells me that I'm the reason that we had no food in the house. His sister didn't like the cheaper of the two grocery stores by the house and I was too tired keeping my MIL'S house up to my SIL and MIL's standards. Which was basically spotless which is somewhat difficult when your watching three kids and making sure they don't make messes after they wake up from there nap. I learned to take them outside after there nap and we'd be out there until dinner time unless it was too hot for them to go out and play. Then we all watched movies. I think thats how my youngest son grew to love "Rudy." I was watching them at my MIL's and then dragging myself home, I'd have a glass of sugar water and then fall asleep. Hes saying that I'm blaming him for not having food in the house. Hello I didn't have the strength sometimes to even get out of bed in the morning much less to take three buses because your sister thought that the grocery store that I went to was Nasty. He had me in tears three times that night, and still wouldn't let me go sit down and wrap my head around all he was saying to me. We ended up on the phone for over 4 hours. Now hes mad at me because we again aren't really communicating. He wants me there for him when he goes to court in August. Right now I'm in the middle of getting multiple extractions of my teeth, which he said that I rottened myself because I love to eat cotton candy. Yes I love cotton candy and yeah I try and get some when I can. But I didn't just eat cotton candy. He could of gotten us onto Medicade when he got to FL because he was ther for about two weeks, but no he didn't even f***en apply for Medicade or TANF or did he help his mom transfer her information to the state of FL because Nathaniel's shot records were in my MIL's file. She refused to have it transfered so my then 3 yr old had to get everyone of his shots all over again. I felt so bad for him when I found out. My SIL said that he was a trooper through it all, but I think that it was totally unnessery (sp?) !!!!!!

He (stbx) goes to court the 8th of next month for Driving On Suspention. He had been pulled over prior with a friend of his and the cop that checked out everyone in the cars ID knew that he didn't have a drivers license. He was put in jail the day before my 28th Bday. I was like wth are you doing calling me from county lockup? I wasn't accepting his calls and he had his roommates calling me to tell me what he wanted to say to me. He moved out of his friends how around the 12th of June, the kids went back to FL on the 20th and so for the last month my stbx has been taking care of the kids. Yeah I call to talk to my babies, and yeah they talk to me to a point. My 4 yr old says three sentences to me. Hi MommyRhonda. I love you too. Bye. My 2 yr old says Hi Mommy and then starts to serinate me with Itty-Bitty-Spider. My 5 soon to be 6 yr old keeps asking when I'm going to be home. To be honest with you, I don't know when I'll be back home. But I don't want to tell that to a soon to be 6 yr old. Hes basically the one who will actually talk to me longer on the phone. My stbx's Aunt is like hes really grown up since the kids got back. Then Nathaniel does something off the wall that its frustrating my stbx. Nathaniel is the 4 yr old. He has some sensory issues and he keeps biting anything inflatable and when hes asked why he bit the air mattress he says Because I wasn't supposed to. That is him mocking what his older brother says when he gets into trouble, so my stbx isn't really trying to get to the root of Nathaniel's issue. He bit through his third or fourth bed already. Today he popped his dad's bed, he was angry and Nathaniel just shut down. I could hear him just start tuning my stbx out and that frustrated him even more. My mom is back in the hospital again and I need to finish my art project that I'm working on for a greiving friend.

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by Tru2Him4E on Jul. 23, 2008 at 1:13 AM

I don't get it. Where R U and where are the kids? How are you doing besides frustrated and/or ticked off at him? Are you getting the support you need more places than just CM? I have no one left here in my town because my friend all moved away. I know how it feels to be lonely. Message me anytime!

Sincerely, Leslie Grace

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by myheartpres on Jul. 23, 2008 at 3:07 AM

I dont really get it either, but I to hope you are getting some sort of help, or support from someone thats close to you. Please keep us informed hope you are ok.

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I don't get it. Where R U and where are the kids? How are you doing besides frustrated and/or ticked off at him? Are you getting the support you need more places than just CM? I have no one left here in my town because my friend all moved away. I know how it feels to be lonely. Message me anytime!

Sincerely, Leslie Grace

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