please help! me

[shylomama]

  ok iknow it sounds like an emergence  and in a way it is iam at the end o my rope i cant find a job with hours that i can work and you have heard me speak o my son logan were goin though testing for him he is well a wild n crazy child hes been so bad he understands no  sometymes  but other tymes it like iam speakin chinese to him how can he understand sometings and not others he is fearless  braking cribs n pack n plays but latley iam worried i can say no and its  like i never said it at all  he does it agin he cant do tyme out he cant stay still ever you cant yell at him it doesnt work you cant spank him it doesnt work  i do the best i cant to keep my kool but i running thin i try to but him in his carseat for tyme out he fliped it and hit his head his moods happy to sad to screaming to rage he thorws things and pushes even me i dont think he knows what to do when he gets mad but after the broken door in my house and  it like what i have been doin isnt working any more i love my some and iam try to get through for him iwant him to learn how to be a kid and be happy but how how he has a routine we follow and hes does ok at school he has his own aide a male teacher because he needs to be followed around he cant be trusted at all by him self he doent know and this teacher has to hold him as me son sits in tyme out on his lap i try it here but he is as storng as a grown man  IAM GETTING SO STREE I KNOW ITS NOT EASY BUT HOW CAN I TEACH A CHILD THAT MIGHT N0T EVEN UNDERSTAND THE  SPEACH DELAY DOESNT HELP  IT MUST BE HARD FOR HIM I EXPLAN EVERTHING TO HIM STILL NOTHING THE SAME FLIPPING OUT HE JUST REPEATS HIS BAD ACTIONS OVA N OVA SOMTINGS SINK IN AND AT TYMES HE IS A GOOD BOY BUT AFTER THE PAST 3 WEEKS I FEAR THERE IS NO HOPE  I WILL BE WITH MY SON ALWAYS TO LOVE HIM AND GUIDE HIM BUT I FEAR FOR HIS FURTURE AND HIS INTERACTION WITH THE WORLD HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND  I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY  SO THANK YOU ALL WHO READ THIS .SHANNON