I need to get this off my chest

[heartstolen08]

Hi my name is Cory. I have a beautiful 6 month old son named brayden.

 Thats me and a little over a month ago.

When he was two months old he was diagnosed with having ASD( Atrial Septial Defect aka a hole in the heart) Now I know it is actually very common and the dr said it isnt fatal. We took him to a heart specialist at Rainbow, Babies, and Childrens In Cleveland and they put him on medacine because his heart was getting swollen due to the one side getting twice the blood it should. We went back yesterday and the dr said his heart didnt feel swollen and they would take a lokk and probably take him off his medacation. Well they looked and it was still too swollen so they upped the dose of his nedacine. He said his hole was still to big and didnt look like it was ever going to close on its own so in 6 weeks when we go back for a follow uo appointment we are going to have to discuss the options of closing it. We can A open his chest and close it now (I dont wanna have to do that if at all possible) or B wait until he is a little bigger and go up through his artery in his groin area and laser it closed (sounds safer to me). The dr said it isnt fatal at this point but his blood flow has already slowed down and his oxygen levels slowly continue to get lower. I know this is common and I am told the procedure to close it is no big deal but I am petrified. I lost my dad (who I was very close to) 5 years ago closely followed by two of my uncles and just a year ago my best freind was killed in a car accident, so I dont have very good luck with holding on to people close to me. I am so scared of losing him, I cant take it. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry and getting mad at me cuz I am so scared. They dont understand, I would die without him, he is the only good thing in my life. Please, Please pry for him, I know there are people out there with worse problems and illnesses but he is my whole world, please when you pray for everyone else could you throw him in there real quick too! Thank you!

 

[momto3.5]

Aug. 5, 2008 at 8:15 PM

I'll pray for him ,and you, for comfort and guidance in decision making. Sorry you are going through this.

[needaminute]

Aug. 5, 2008 at 8:22 PM

Sweetie when my son was born he was perfect,then on nov.1 he had a loud mumor,then the heart doctor saw him on dec.1, we did  his surgery on the 12th, well he didn't make it. So sweetie do your mommy instict thing.  MY sister in law has a hole in heart and she is in her 50's, she is ok. need to talk im here. and you both are number one on our prayer list.