Attacked(part2)aka Hurt(part2)

[mmnjp03]

PLEASE DON'T BE CRUEL! I JUST NEED SOME ADVICE OR MAYBE TO JUST ADMIT I'M SCARED.On Nov 5 2007 I was attacked at work by a client. As a result of his attack I suffered severe bruising to the chest ,back,arms and legs. I was temporarily paralyzed and I have 2 herniated discs ,1 bulging disc and pinched nerves in my neck which has caused some loss of function and feeling in my left arm. I of course have been through all the proper treatments and I have been receiving great medical care during this time. But now as I realize that I will have to go back to work I'm not sure I can. I think I'm afraid. I worked so hard to become an officer. I knew I could get hurt but hell I was a Marine so I figured I could handle it but now I'm not sure I can go back in there and treat the clients with respect and kindness. I know not all of our clients are like the one who attacked me. He was a drug addict coming down from a high not a truly mentally ill person. Most of or clients are not violent and if they are it's towards themselves. So if I know all this why am I up crying writing this at 1am? I need to work my SO and I cant afford to lose my paycheck.I felt so proud to do my job. Now I feel like such a chicken.I just feel so lost right now.My son is scared for me to go back as well. So I know when I tell him he's going to freak out. The first few months I was off I had no problem with the thought of going back. But now I guess as the time possibly nears I'm not sure that I can.I started to go to therapy so I hope that helps soon. Today I looked into working from home but nothing I found can replace that much income so I have to go back. Thanks for listening ladies. You all are truly the best.

[littlejreece]

Aug. 6, 2008 at 3:04 AM

Oh man, that is such a tough situation! I think what you are experiencing is perfectly normal--the stress from an experience like that is going to affect you alot, maybe even more than you realize. Hopefully you will get some relief and insight from therapy--I am so glad to hear that you are going. The right counselor can make all the difference in helping you learn techniques to manage your stress. Good luck and best wishes--I hope everything turns out great!

[AvieJoysmommy]

Aug. 24, 2008 at 1:20 AM

That is a truely tough situation and I really feel for ya.  I wish I had some great advice for ya that would make everything ok but I don't, sorry.  All I can offer is my prayers that God will watch over you and keep you safe.  Good luck and know that I am an awesome prayer warrior!!!!