MY HUSBANDS AUNT WOKE ME UP WITH A PHONE CALL THIS MORNING

[SYSTERANGEL2]

SHE LEARNED FROM LOUIE OR MY MIL THAT SHE AGREED ON ME MOVING IN WITH THEM, I WAKE UP TO HEARING HER VOICE BECAUSE MY MOM HAS ANSWERED THE PHONE ON SPEAKER PHONE.  SHE THEN PUTS ME ON THE PHONE WITH HER AND SHE NOTICES THAT I'M A LITTLE HESITANT ON THE PHONE ABOUT MOVING BACK.  THREE TIMES IN ABOUT 5 MINUTES SHE TOLD ME THAT THIS IS THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN GET YOUR KIDS BACK.  I'M LIKE WTH I JUST WOKE THE FREAK UP SO YOU DON'T NEED TO THROW THIS IN MY FACE.  YES SHE KNOWS THAT HER SISTER TREATS ME LIKE I'M LOWER THAN THE DIRT ON THE GROUND IN CHINA.  SHE TELLS ME THAT MY BABIES NEED ME. DUH I KNOW THAT, SEE WHAT GETS ME IS THAT THIS AUNT ALSO WON'T LET ME STAND UP FOR MYSELF WHEN SHE STARTS TRASHING ME.  I STOOD UP TO FACE HER AND SHE PROCEED TO CALL ME A B**** BECAUSE I TRIED TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!! MY MOM WAS ON THE TELEPHONE LONG DISTANCE AND SHE HEARD EVERY WORD.  SHE WAS VERY UPSET BY WHAT SHE WAS HEARING HER DAUGHTER BEING CALLED.  SHE WILL TRY AND BE MY FRIEND AND THEN TURN AROUND AND TELL MY MIL EVERYTHING THAT I'VE TOLD HER. CINDY AGREED TO HER SIS TAKING MY FS CARD WHEN I WAS PG WITH MY YOUNGEST SON.  I COULDN'T BY ANYTHING FOR MYSELF, EVERY SINGLE FOOD ITEM IN THAT HOUSE WENT TO HER DAUGHTER-IN-LAW BECAUSE SHE WAS PG WITH HER FIRST.  NATHANIEL IS MY SECOND.  HERE WAS THE EATING ORDER BACK THEN, AND THE REASON FOR THE NUMBERS IS BECAUSE WE WERE FEEDING THIS MANY PEOPLE.

1 MY MIL

2 CINDY (AUNT)
3 TAKCODA (MY OLDEST)

4 TARA(CINDYS YOUNGEST)

5 CRYSTAL (CINDY'S DIL)

6 BUDDY PAUL (CINDY'S SON)

7 ALICIA (SIL)

8 DAVID (BIL)

9 LOUIE (HUSBAND)

10 MARY BETH (CINDY'S OLDEST DD)

11 EDDIE (CRYSTAL'S LITTLE BROTHER)

12 JONNY (MY SIL'S BF) AND LAST AND I CERTAINLY GOT THE LEAST

13 ME 

WHY YOU WONDER?  BECAUSE AGAIN IT WAS MY MIL'S HOUSE, AND I WAS JUST LIVING THERE. 

I LIVE BY THE PHILOSIPHY THAT MY KIDS ARE MY LIFE.  I'M NOT WANTING TO GO BACK TO BE A SCAPE GOAT AGAIN.  MY BABIES NEED ME THOUGH, ITS LIKE MY CHILDREN ARE BEING HELD HOSTAGE AND THE ONLY WAY TO GET THEM OUT OF THAT SITUATION IS FOR ME TO POSSIBLY PUT MY LIFE IN DANGER.  SOMETHING THAT I'M NOT REALLY WANTING TO EVEN THINK ABOUT.  THEY ALREADY KNOW HOW TO CONTROL ME WITH FOOD OR LACK THERE OF.  WHEN I GOT OUT HERE I WOULD EAT AND THEN START TO FEEL FULL, BUT IF FOOD WAS OFFERED TO ME I'D STILL EAT IT BECAUSE MY MIND WAS STILL IN SURVIVAL MODE.  FOOD AND WATER ARE THE SORCE OF SURVIVAL, WITH ME THE LACK OF FOOD IN MY REFIGERATOR PUTS FEAR IN MY HEART.  I NEED YALL TO KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS PLEASE.

[gabrielle_x]

Aug. 7, 2008 at 2:16 PM

Rhonda...we need to get a place together...

I had a job interview today..I'm SURE I've got the job..

You can move over here, and find a job when you're with your "family", then move the hell out until we can figure out how to get your kids back!! I'm living with my family since Justin left. I just can't live on NO INCOME because he took EVERYTHING, every ounce of money I had, every last dime.

But now that I'm getting a job..well..two jobs actually..I'll be able to afford to share the cost of a place with someone..

WE WILL GET YOUR KIDS BACK. It's absolutely horrible what they're doing to you..

keep at least an audio recording of everything that they say derogatory and such..if they start belittling you, just walk away, find your recorder and just tape it..you can even send them to me in the mail if it's a necessity so they don't find them...and then, whenever you go to court to GET YOUR BABIES BACK...we'll use it against them...and just bludgeon them to death with their OWN words..

Have you ever seen where the heart is?? It's an amazing movie, for some reason it reminds me of this moment..

[dellwithtwins]

Aug. 7, 2008 at 3:46 PM

My prayers go out to you . So sorry you have to deal with all this. Ihear what you are saying about doing what ever it takes to take care of your kids. May God watch over you and yours.

[planetwendy]

Aug. 20, 2008 at 11:14 AM

I hate that he family treats you that way and I hope you have learned to value yourself more since you have been out here in AZ. You are a great person who deserves to be treated well. Is there any way for you to get your kids without going back into that hellish situation? I know sometimes it is not that easy. Take care, you are always in my prayers.