he's leaving in a month :(

[armywife814]

Well the time has finally come to where i have to actually face the fact that my husband will be gone for a year maybe even longer...he is getting deployed to Iraq in September and i had to go to a family deployment briefing over the weekend and the whole time i was there i had to hold back the tears of actually thinking about him leaving...these past few months i kind of put it out of my mind...i didnt think about the deployment and him leaving at all until i looked at the calender and noticed it was already august and around this time next month my hubby will be gone...i dont fear the fact of him cheating because in my mind he has had plenty of opportunities to stray in the past and he hasnt and he knows that if he does it while he is away and in the circumstances we are going through it would crush me to an unimaginable state...i think it is hitting home for him too because everytime he has to go to work he is holding on to my son a little longer and telling him "daddy loves you very much and always remember that"...we never know what lies ahead for us and i think a lot of people take advantage of the time they have now to share with loved ones because alot of people out there dont know what it is like to have a loved one taken away from us not by death but by a simple piece of paper called..ORDERS....my husband is the rock to our family...when he is gone there is this ghostly silence in the house...i dont hear him playing with my son...making general conversation..or even yelling at the dog:) i know this is test us military wives all have to endure at some point but needless to say i dont want to take this test..i dont want to him to leave and wait to say hello but i know this is the job he loves and i have to accept that....i guess i just needed to vent...

[ThreeFates511]

Aug. 7, 2008 at 7:05 PM

Aww sweetie I'm sorry! It does get easier when they are gone, because you do get settled into a schedule, but it's going to be a hard job, but you'll do great!! Just keep pushing forward and you'll do great! IF you need to talk I'm here for you!