due date 08-08-08

[mommything03]

well i made it, i survived the day that i was hoping would never come.  no lighting hit me, no car ran me over, nothing but a feeling of loss, of something that wouldnever be. 

we went to his grave and we put down a few toys for him and for the rest of my family we put flowers down too, my mom, my uncle, my grandmother, and my brother.  me and my daughter are all that are left from that side of the family.  it is sad really, i wish that it was not like this, i wish that my mom was still here so that she could help me out in ways that others can't.  for to be here to hold her grandchildren, to watch her babies grow up to be kind adults, but she didn't want to go on aftger she lost her best friend.  not even her daughter could keep her here. i wish that i wouldn't have had to pull her off, or to even say good bye, but right now i know that it was for the best, she is holding my son, for me till i can see him again.  he is going to be so loved, loved more than he ever would have been down here.  he has lots of family up there but not so much here.  dome days though, i wish i was with him or him with me, but i know that will never happen, i love life, and i love my family. they are everything to me.

but something did really make yesterday special.  our cat had her litter one was born at 330 am another was born at 715am and the last one was born at 915 am, both mom and babies are doing good and they are so cute!!!

[debmom07]

Aug. 9, 2008 at 8:34 AM

im sorry for your loss, thank-you for sharing your story with us. congrats on the cats. God bless

[WendiSea]

Aug. 9, 2008 at 10:12 AM

I'm so proud of you for getting through the day! Are you having fun with your cute little kittens?

[termit2001]

Aug. 10, 2008 at 2:31 AM

 my days are just arournd the corner, when I look at my son its hard to think about the 2 babies I lost