I'm at my wit's end.

[ConnorsMommy521]

I am having a rough month with my only child. He is three and 1/2 and beginning to test me in every way I can think of.  Time out now gets a screaming reaction with jumping off the chair (we have to put him back on and don't say anything for the most part but I am preggo and it hurts my back and it's just plain tiring).  

We went to the store, he wanted something, I told him no, he asked again, I still said no, he YELLED about it and I picked him up to take him outside to col off and he hit me. Then he wold not stay in time out.  So I left.  I also left his airplane in the bottom of the cart and told him that the plane was staying there. 

He cried and I asked him when we got home why his airplane was still at the store and he didn't answer.  I et him sit there for a good 10 minutes (unbuckled in his seat with the window down and the car off in the driveway.  I was reading a magazine. 

He finally talked to me, I told him what my expectations were.  Told him that we will do A,B,C while in the store and if he followed the directions (not hitting, screaming, or running) then he would get his airplane back. 

Not 1 minute into the store,  took adifferent kind of cart and he started pushing it saying it was the wrong cart, blah blah blah.  I gave him a warning and he still kept going.

We left and we left his airplane there.  I Called the store and they are holding it at the counter. 

I am going nuts here.  He is not listening.  We are not talking about the baby non stop, we are not redecorating a room for the baby and such.  I talk about it but only a LITTLE bit.  I don't want to freak him out.  I am going NUTS>>>>>>>

I going back to work ( I teach) in 10 days I am looking forward to it.  I wish I had a better handle on my son.  I teach middle school and can talk with older kids, I don't teach little kids because I know I can't handle them. 

Ugh, this is long but it is just venting mainly for my own sanity.  I need to get this out even if no one else sees it!