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[19D_mom]

So as most of you know by reading my status updates, it's been over 3 weeks since I last talked to John. It's really making me crazy. I have not been myself these past few weeks and I apologize to everyone if I've been anti-social. I've been trying to keep busy but I have litter or no motivation to do anything. I have anxiety attacks and either rush out of my house to avoid being restless or vent on the computer to my fellow Army wife friends. Nothing really seems to help and I have a doctors appointment next Monday to hopefully get on some meds. I haven't been this stressed out since my parents divorced and because of that I have also developed a stress ulcer. This helps NONE because it has caused me to have no desire to eat as well. All food seems to make me nauseous and I've lost about 7 lbs in 3 weeks. That's NOT a good thing, I think I'm skinny enough as it is. I check the news probably 5 times a day. For those of you who have gone or are going through this, you know that the media is the fastest way to get info about a units actions. As of now it seems like John is on some crazy terrorist hunt. I feel like I almost lost it when Iraq walked onto the floor in China for the Olympics. They stand there proud and yet I feel like they have nothing to be proud of. The news reports continually say that the soldiers are doing all the work while the Iraq army and police sit in the shade. It is not our everlasting job to be there and defend their country. Eventually, these people need to step up and do the work themselves. John is on his second tour, 15 months, and for what? For Iraqis to be able to observe my husband taking down the terrorists himself. Screw that. Okay, so that was slightly off topic but it is one thing that keeps crossing my mind. My husband may never be the same after this, they better make it worth it. Fuck the politics on the matter, this is beyond political now that it's personal. I just want to talk to John. I can deal with him being deployed, with not seeing him or having him here. I can DEAL with that as much as I don't like it. I can't, however, deal with not even being able to hear his voice. The stress and anxiety are more than I can handle, I hope he calls before my family has me committed.

[BOOGIETHEBOOG]

Aug. 12, 2008 at 3:40 PM

  I am so sorry that you did not hear from John yet.  Take care of your self so that you can take care of  your  baby. 

[MeghansMommy410]

Aug. 12, 2008 at 6:42 PM

My husband suggested that you contact your unit FRG or Rear Detachment.  They can send a message to the front to have your hubby call you.  If he is somewhere that he cannot get to a phone, they can sometimes get a phone to him.  The Army is getting better about making family important, and sometimes they can help you and your hubby out by making contact.  Good Luck!!