Anniversary

[Buggirl]

Well todays my anniversary... 3 years... yea... and well i aint too happy. Me and the husband got into a huge fight... and well i just dont feel much like celebrating... i mean weve had a ton of fights... usually ending with i hate yous and why did i marry yous... i guess i never thought itd be this rough. It seemed so simple 3 years ago to walk down that isle and say i do, but now its like everytime i think back im screaming at myself dont do... run away! I mean sure we have our good days... but its like every month another stupid thing comes up and bam were mad at each other again... is this how its always gonna be.. i used to look forward to holidays now i dread them becasuse he always does or says something to make me hate the fact that i have to walk around all happy about a holiday and all i wanna do is cry. It almost feels like i have to put 100% of my energy into being happy and nice lately and deep inside im not happy. And i know its something stupid were fighting about... but it still hurts all the same... i just need to vent i guess and write down how i feel...

so i guess happy 3 year anniversary to me... while i choke back my tears and anger... and try to smile...