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Next Step, whats left...
- Aug 14, 2008 at 10:44 AM
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So after another failed cycle, I went in for day 3 blood and U/S and this month is a bust anyway....A huge follicle decided to hang out and we couldn't proceed with another cycle anyway! SO, I need to take a month off anyway! I really didn't want to take a break! I quit my job and I am at home now, so I was dedicated to this! But of course my body again doesn't want to cooperate! I am feeling so down, I know I need some kind of therapy because I need help coping and dealing with all this!
I broke down and asked the Doc, seriously "Am I wasting my time", and he said absolutely not, you have just begun my therapy and I have had success with situations just like yours...It gives me hope, but, how much can I take! We are not talking months, we are talking YEARS! 6 to be exact, and 4.5 yrs before that to get PG'ers with my son! Its just so frustrating! I need to give my doc a little time...But I am tired!
Can I do IVF, thats what he is recommending if my husband and I agree! I would start on the 27th of August! I am nervous and can't make the decision so easy.
Hubby and I talked yesterday and I thought I had made up my mind, but today I feel differently. I am so scared of the outcome! What if it doesn't work? Hubby says thats it! That's the last thing we will do! "I lost my wife" he told me yesterday, you are a crazy person, I don't like that Stephenie! I don't either!
I joined Resolve and I am hoping to find some support and hope that maybe I can make my decision a little easier. I think going through this with someone will make it a little easier! Its really a hard decision because its the only thing we have not done, and am I mentally ready to do this?
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Oh Steph, I wish I could just give you a hug. My DH and I were in that situation and were struggling with the IVF decision. Fortunately, our IUI worked, but I really feel in my heart we would have not done it. I think it's fantastic if you two make that decision, but if you're going back and forth, I'd wait a few more months. Good luck, mama!
Ugh I can't say I know where you are coming from but I will pray for you there has to be a baby out there waiting for you.
Oh Girl, I feel you on so many levels, but you amaze me with your strength to go on for this long. Decide what is right for you two. You are in my prayers!
just think if you don't try it will you always be wondering if that was the thing that would've worked. good luck to you.
Steph you are one of the very strongest women I know. You truly inspire me with all of your words of encouragement whenever any of us are feeling down. I know you really didn't want to take a break from trying...but coming to a decision like that too quickly to try and "make the next cycle" would certainly put ME over the edge. In a way I feel exactly like larissacst..... it could bring you exactly what you want....but I may just be saying that because I have come to terms with the fact that IVF is our ONLY option ( its just a matter of saving money ). What is you Dr.'s success rate - not just for pregnancy BUT for live births? Steph this is a hard decision I know and if you need someone to listen...I am here! xox
Steph, Tonight I went to a 'ladies night out[ with my church and I was talking to a lady who went through infertility for 4 years to have her first and 6 years to have her second, I of course thought of you. The woman said to me as I was telling her my ttc story, just promise me you'll pray about it because really that's all we can do. It's out of our hands and we think praying about it is not doing enough, but really it is doing everything. I thought that was really profound. I can not imagine how much hurt you are feeling, I know how much this world can change us and overtake our lives. I do think that counceling is a great idea, I have talked to my pastor a few times for help to cope and i haven't been through nearly as much. You have been strong for too long, it is time to breakdown and let this hurt out of you. Please pray about it. As you have offered to me, if you ever want to chat please send me a message and I'd be more than happy to give you my number. BIG hugs and even BIGGER prayers!!!
Prayers & vibes and I hope that all goes well for you.
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I feel so bad for you, I know you must be hurting and conflicted over this. I will say a prayer for you and I hope you are pregnant very soon. Good luck.
- Carly67
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