30 weeks

[casper4991]

yay its finally 30 weeks! only 10 weeks until my due date and 7 until im "full term" I can't wait to finally be done with this. I've been miserable.. I know she will be worth it. She will be my little princess. I'm so scared what the future holds but I'm sure it will all work out for the best.

Last night I went to my first Lamaz class and it was interesting. Loc went with me to the first one because i begged him but he wont be able to make it to the rest. He hosts darts at his bar on the same night and time as Lamaz so he cant miss 4 of them. I was so happy he came with me last night. All the girls there had the fathers of their babies with them and I'm going to look like a fool going by myself to the rest. I'm trying to find a girlfriend to go with me but who knows.

I've been really nausious and having a fever this past week but so has loc so I know its not just pregnancy. We both obviously have a virus and its miserable. I feel bad that I gave it to him. I fully believe he gave it to me though =)

Even though I'm really lonely and feel like I have nobody in my life I'm so lucky that Loc has been here for me. I know right now he doesnt want to be with me but the fact that hes by my side the entire way and helps me through everything is a blessing. I'm extremely lucky. I get emotional and feel like I'm all by myself but I'm not. Hes gone to most of my appointments with me, he talks to me everyday, he makes me dinner alot, he buys me lots of things because he knows I cant afford it right now, and he just all in all takes care of me. He's amazing and I hope he knows that. I could use a few more massages though ;-)