So for those of you who don't know me and my family, my dad is leaving tomorrow. My dad is gonna be in Texarkana for 2 weeks for training and from there he is leaving for Iraq for 2 years. He's been back and forth for the past 4-5 years and it's been hard each and every time but this time hurts more. I grew up with my dad in the Army so he wasn't around much. He was always away in the field or overseas. I don't remember a whole lot of my dad growing up and we were never close but after he came home last year, he promised that he would stick around to be with my mom more and make up to my brother and I what we missed out on. He also swore that he would be here to watch my daughter grow up and now that's not happening either. I am caught somewhere between devastated and angry. Bella is only 8 months old and I am so afraid that she will forget him. She loves me so much and it just hurts. She already doesn't know her uncle (my baby brother) because he's been in Iraq since before she was born. To make matters worse, my mom is going to be alone so in November my husband and I are moving in with her to make sure she's okay. Don't get me wrong, it helps because it allows us the resources to save money but now I have to worry about her too. I gonna miss my dad. I'm trying to hold it all in because I don't want to upset my mom but the reality is fast coming. Tonight is the last night me or Bella will see him. Boy, I wished I smoked or something!