i meant to post this on the 15th.

[MissChristina88]

Heres a thought; i never thought that after 10 years itd still hurt this much...
todays been 10 years since my grandpa died. it still feels like it just happened to me yesterday. i havent cried but im about to. i miss him dearly. at one point he was more like a father to me than my real father. how sad is that. i hate that with every day i grow more scared that im going to forget who he is because he died right before i turned 10 years old. i was so little and i can barley remeber alot of stuff about him. i dont want to cry but i cant help it. the pain. it hurts. i want it to go away. i want to know hes not hurting anymore. i know my younger brother probably feels worse right about not but i dont know how thats possible because i feel pretty crappy right about now. id do anything to hear his voice again or just to get a glimpse of him again. i know i have pictures but that doesnt help. i wish i could just wish him back to life. there are so many people here that still love him and miss him dearly as much as i do or even more.why is it that the good people die and the ones who are idiots still live? i hate that. i hate it hate it hate it! sorrrry. i just miss him terribly.
grandpa i miss you terribly and theres not a day that doesnt go by that i dont think of you and grow to miss you more. i cnat wiat for the day that i will be able to see you agian in heaven
3/29/1929 - 8/15/98
R.I.P.
love you<3

on the brighter note.
today is a member of my fav bands bday
Joe Jonas<333
turned 19 todayyyy
&&&&
his parents aniversary was today to
how cute is that
joe i love you marry me please hahaha