R.I.P Anthony.

[moonliiteyes]

It's been almost 3 months since you've been gone and it feels like it's been a life time. I miss you so much. We didn't get to spend much time together but it was enough for me. Enough for me to get close to you and make memories. Great memories at that. It felt like just yesterday we were all making plans on going to an amusement park but we never got to fulfill those because you were taken us too soon. Or how we all went to the hotel room and basically trashed it and our make shift curtain so Mandie and Steve couldn't see us and we couldn't see them. How I spilled over 100 jello shots and your drink on the floor with a blanket. Was I tipsy? Haha! Everything about you is worth the memory. How you were trying to tell me that I wasn't ready for a serious relationship cuz I have a million screen names and shit. You made me cry that night, then 10 minutes after Mandie comforting me, it was over. We were all giggles and smiles. Not to mention what we did afterwards, haha. It's the day I heard the news about the accident and my mom told me to hope for a miracle. That's the first time I ever asked God for help. It was my time to believe in him. I prayed and prayed and I was failed. I wish you would have gotten rid of that damn bike when everyone was telling you. You were too young to be taken away. I remember the night before your accident and we were on the phone. You told me you needed to tell me how you felt about me, and you never got that chance. You told me you loved me and then that was that. Man, I fuckin' miss you so damn much! You don't even know. I was sleeping with your hat constantly and I still do from time to time. It helps me be close to you, even though I know you're always around me. It's the only thing I have of yours, besides our memories; our percious memories. Anthony, I miss you. I miss you terribly.

[maofemmjacgav]

Aug. 19, 2008 at 8:49 AM

 for your pain..... hang in there