It's been a long time since I have felt like this...I am exactly enjoying my time off and as I said it's been a long time. I am just really feeling happy about everything again. I am glad to be home and I haven't felt like this in a long time. I am happy to see smiles on my children's faces again, and for once I am not arguing with my son's father. I and him have had a talk the other day. I still don't think he gets it, but you know what I can't worry about it anymore. I guess in life some of us get it and some of us don't and I guest he falls in the latter category. All I know is that I am happy again and I owe it all too God, my family and my new friends on Cafemom. I guess in life when we are so stressed and aggravated we tend to forget the little pleasures. Like the sun, laughter, a simple hello or even a smile and I guest I just forgot those things; even though they were the most important things to me back in the day, before everything got so chaotic. I will never again forget not to let a man block my salvation because it is just not worth it.
I still don't know what his plans for the future are, but he saids he wants to work the relationship out. I would just like to raise my son. I guest if he can behave hisself and just try and grow up; then maybe we can, but only time can tell and then I would have to see from there. I can't get my hopes up all high, but I am willing to give it a shot. I have a life to live and I can't let no one get in my way of living it, plus life is to short to be stressing over bullshit that is just not worth it in the long run. Whoohoo! Like I said I am loving my happiness again and IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME... God Bless all of you who are responsible for getting me back to me. Love to each and everyone of you.