Well, the time has come and Spencer started kindergarten this morning.  As we were leaving, as if I wasn't sad enough, my 2 1/2 yr old daughter said "you forgot Spencer mommy".  Well that just made me more sad and the tears I was holding back started coming down.   He's the second one now to be in school.  My oldest is in 4th grade and he told Spencer this morning that he'll look for him at recess.  That makes me feel good to know that his older brother is looking out for him and is willing to make his little brother feel more comfortable at school.  I had to go in the bathroom this morning after Spencer gave me a big hug because I was tearing up and I didn't want him to see me.  He asked for tissue for his pocket because he said he might cry a little.  He's more shy than his big brother so I think he'll cry quietly to himself a little.  That's how  he is.  He's the break your heart crier.  He's so quiet about it and it just makes you sad when he cries.  His brother cried on his first day of kindergarten for just a bit after I dropped him off, and he's the social one!  It's weird here with just one child again.  I haven't had just one at home for a long time.  Spencer wrote me a card that says " I love you mom, Spencer"  because he wanted me to have it today when I got sad.  It's hanging on the fridge. 

Yesterday I took Spener to Chuck E Cheese, just me and him, for some mommy/Spencer time alone before school started.  He was so happy.  We spent 3 hours there and played everything and just had a good time together.  He is so good and didn't even ask for anything, I asked him if he wanted me to buy him a toy.  He picked one and I let him pick another one too on top of what little things he won with his tickets from the games.  We had a great day together.  I enjoyed it so much, especially when he put his hand on my leg and scooted close to me when we were eating and he said "I love you mommy".  Melts my heart.   And now he's in kindergarten.  My little mommy's boy is growing up.  He's such a sweet, loving, kind, wonderful little boy.  I'm so proud to be his mommy.

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