When I was Adopted

[wolowski511]

When I was adopted I was adopted through the state of California to a really great family who gave me everything. The one thing they can't give me is information about my birth mother or what she looks like , the state sent me something and blacked out identifying info but you could still see it so I know my mothers first and last name before she got married it had her B-day and my name when I was born and some other info that really doesn't matter any more. So when I had a baby that I couldn't keep  out of kindness I gave her up  for adoption to a family  that I picked  and she is extremly spoiled also things they promised me they have fulfilled so I do not feel bad about my decision  now but it was so hard to do at the time I just had to realize I already had a baby who had just turned 1 six days before Danielle was bornand I was 19 and already having a hard time finding work both fathers were not in the picture my oldest daughters dad was in jail for threatening our lives and calling the cops on himself so I wasn't going to put me or my daughter back in that situation so I moved out of state but before I did I was date raped by a friend and I didn't tell anybody besides I was moving so I am in Utah for 6mo and find out I am 6mo pregnant so I decided the day I found out I was not keeping this baby but some other family can take care of her so I called an adoption agency and after everything was said and done I met my daughters new mother in the hospital we discussed things and she asked what I was going to name her but I wanted to know the same thing she said they were thinking about Danielle tears filled my eyes because that was the same name I wanted to name her so I knew it was meant to be 24hrs later I signed the papers and I got to choose if it was open or not and I of course chose open since I didn't get that choice and I have so many questions so every 6mo I get updated pics of her and letters I also can do the same and I really need to do that since I haven't in a few years but I know I did the right thing I just wish I knew why I was adopted and I was almost 2 so I have a few attachment issues which I know that is the reason..... but if any one has questions I will be glad to answer them...... Jessica

[Kellyjude1]

Aug. 26, 2008 at 8:43 PM

 Thank you for sharing your story.  I am an adoptive mom to a beautiful 3 year old son.  He is my world!!!  We also communicate with our son's birth mom, send lots of pictures and updates.  We have been truly blessed by adoption.  We all strongly feel God brought us together for a reason, and that our paths were supposed to cross.  Hearing how the hopeful adoptive parents chose the same name you had in mind is just amazing.  God does work in mysterious ways.  My thoughts and prayers are with you that you can find your birth mom.  Please keep us posted.....