Letting Go

[eeyore13]

In just a few short days I will be joining the ranks of moms who are letting go of their kids for the first time.  After much testing and having our concerns about the boys heard out and confirmed, the decision was made to enroll them in the special education preschool (for lack of a better term) in our county.  The teacher in me knows that this is the best thing for them.  The mom in me cried when I made the decision; she thought she had two more years.  For 2 ½ hours every day two pieces of my heart will learn about life without each other, making friends, how to listen and follow directions, and reinforce the academic skills that we have been working on at home.  The teachers are awesome and love the kids that they teach.  The boys will be receiving the coping skills that they need to be successful in school and life.  I can understand a little more now why some families have their kids three and four years apart; they miss their babies!

But, we are not having anymore just because I miss my babies and have more love to give(Jeremy just won’t budge, LOL).  I was reminded that I will have more kids in the future.  That is why God told me to be a teacher, He had created me with so much love that I had to give it away.  When I go back to the classroom, I will have a whole room of kids to love.  I reflected on the almost one hundred kids that I taught before my own were born.  I called them “my kids” and in my heart they were.  I still worry about them sometimes and pray for them that they are having a good life.  I can’t believe how much they have grown, time goes so fast.  I remember teaching them multiplication tables in third grade, Art, P.E., dissecting chickens in fifth grade, and this year they are Seniors in both high school and college.    I miss every one of my students and am glad that I can keep in touch with a few of them thanks to Facebook and MySpace. 

So here I go, the first of many times that I will have to let go and let them become who God wants them to be. 

[JayDynsMoM05]

Sep. 11, 2008 at 7:55 AM

How is School Going for them?? Jay started school on Sept 2nd and loves it now. He just goes 2 days a week for 2 and a half hours and he now can't wait to go. The first day he did show a few tears but since then its been great!