Feeling lost

[teasforme101]

Since the passing of my daug. to suicide, I have lost all motivation. Trying to find some strength and words of wisdom to carry me through. The days are an eternity to get through. The nights even longer. Can't seem to sleep or eat. Just want some normalicy back in my life. Open to suggestions...thanks

[JoyeAustin]

Sep. 7, 2008 at 10:04 AM

Sweetheart, you need grief counseling. Don't wait any longer. Love to you and your family.

[mybritt]

Sep. 7, 2008 at 10:17 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss.  I agree with JoyeAustin. You need people to talk to and a Suicide Grief Counseling group would be good.  Your local hospital can probably suggest one for you.  (((Hugs)))

[purpleducky]

Sep. 7, 2008 at 10:28 AM

HUGS!! I don't know what to say, sorry.

[Kellyjude1]

Sep. 7, 2008 at 1:58 PM

 I am so sorry.  My thoughts and prayers are with you for strength to get you through such an emotional time in your life. 

[momtojason]

Sep. 9, 2008 at 9:05 AM

The only way I have coped is with medication (anti depressants) and counseling.  I still have trouble sleeping after 2 years.  I lost my only son to suicide 5/19/06. 

Hugs,

Pam

[MandiesMom1985]

Sep. 15, 2008 at 11:26 AM

I too lost my adult daughter to suicide.  She hung herself on April 22, 2007.  Nothing will ever be normal again.  Medication puts me to sleep and gets me through the day.  Friends, hers and mine help.  I tried counseling, went twice and stopped.  The only help I found was the wondrerful people on this site.  I can't get any of it out of my head.  Looking into her unseeing eyes haunts me every second of every day and night.  I keep very busy with work and at home.  We just moved to a new place, I am hoping it will help, but if not I will be following her into the darkness.  She was my only child.  My husband has two other children from a previous marriage, but just last weekend he broke down again as we were moving, going through things and uncovering memories.  Nothing helps, there are still moments I find myself lost in grief and feeling like I am flying apart.  Honestly I feel like my whole being is going to melt away.  Sometimes I wish it would.  This is my last attempt to live, if the move doesn't help, I can't honestly see what there is to keep me here.  She was my only reason for living.  I hope you don't feel this way, but if you do, you are not alone in this nightmare.  My body seems to have gotten better, my heart doesn't flutter as much, my weight seems to have stabalized.  Not losing as much.  But it's hard to eat.  It has been 17 months, but in my mind it seems like just yesterday we got that horrible phone call in the middle of the night.  Her friends screaming and me sitting as numb as can be.  I feel like I died that night too.  It seemed like an eternity to take two hours to drive to St Louis to get to her.  I felt like getting out of the car and running all the way there.  To know she needed me so badly to help her and my not being there, is the worst feeling.  I know I could have prevented it, I just know it.  I let her down.  She was only 22 years old.

MandiesMom85

[Lisa465]

Oct. 7, 2008 at 5:38 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I could tell you that I know how you feel, but I can't. My only suggestion is grief counseling and antidepressants. And talking to some of the other ladies on this website. There is probably a group specifically for people whose children have been lost.