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[TristansMommie]

i doon tlike it. I do not like it one bit. I want to go back home. I am contemplating leaving and going back home after Tristan's birthday.

I mean i have NO FRIENDS really(except Lani, Lani is definitely my friend) and i have NOONE i can trust that I am not paranoid about. I hate hate hate it. And living on post is an ultimate DRAG. I woul dmuch rather be living in my own appt back home in Norfolk then up here far away from everythign i have ever known.

I used to date a guy who said i was a hometown girl and i guess he was right. I like to travel but it makes m esick to my stomach to be away from my family for too long. Like...it drives me BATTY.

I guess I care about Shawn but I dont think ti would matter to him if we left. I mean it would MATTER but he would get over it in a day. And if I am wrong that's the type of persoality he presents to me so it isnt my fault for thinking that.

I dont want to hurt his feelings. But how do i tell him i am miserable up here and i want to go back HOME?

He always wants to come with me when i go visit(VA) but we cant afford hotels for him to stay in...me and the baby can stay at my mom's for free..and really its no tjust that my mom cant stand him, my mom's place is smaller than OUR place...and she has her and my little brother so yeah.

i just need a place to vent I guess. I really want to be around something i am familiar...I want to be able to walk to a SONIC. be driving distance from a CRACKER BARREL, a WAWA, a FARM FRESH, and 4 car dealerships lol! Frankly...i miss the bittersweet air of my hometown. And it is literally fucking with my health , i think so anyway.

[ceciliebw]

Sep. 9, 2008 at 5:07 PM

awww i'm sorry you feel that way..:( We're usually at the white playground in the evenings if you ever want to join us..

[LYNDELOU]

Sep. 10, 2008 at 1:16 AM

Awww Sweetie I am sorry you home sick....Thats a normal feeling , if you really don't want to be there just tell him you can't handle it....Hopefully if you give it more time ( don't know how long you been there ) you will make some good friends...

Oh by the way your gift has been shipped out Sweetie! Shipped out on Monday....