I am so loosing my mind.

[caitebird]

OK this is gonna be hard to understand just cause it is my life and nothing makes sense.  Ok back in the day when I was 11 my family moved to a new town and I had no friends but this one kid.  Matt.  He was/is 2 weeks younger than me but we were always together.  So much that people thought that we were dating.  But I was 11 and I didn't think about boys that way.  Well not Matt.  Well anyways.  We moved again and I stayed in touch for a few more years and again we were together all the time.  I swear he had some kind of feelings for me.  And this was at 14-17.  Then he moved away to Florida and we talked once in a while and I told him that I loved him and he was like "oh I just think of you as my little sister."  I know I shouldn't have told him cause I knew deep down that it would ruin everything that we had and I liked what we had I just wanted more.  Then a few years later I met my husband, Dominic.  And I was and am perfectly happy.  But when I heard some bad news about my dad the first one I called was Matt.  He was there for me through thick and thin when we were younger.  So what difference would it make now.  But in Jan of this year I went home to NJ cause my sister was having her baby and I found out that Matt moved back home with his mom.  And we were supposed to meet up some place and he was supposed to call me.  But the idiot never called.  And the past few nights I have been dreaming of him.  Not like XXX dreams but just like hanging out.  But I am really happy with my husband.  What does this mean?  Am I supposed to get in touch with the idiot again?  Am I still in love with him?  I don't know.  I think I am loosing my mind.

[lunaticmom4]

Sep. 23, 2008 at 3:39 PM

Sylvia Brown says that if you dream of your ex or some other man its not that you LOVE him or want to be with him, it just you like someof his ways and miss them and kinda wish your new had those too..I know it prob don't sound right hard to write, but I still dream of my ex hubby , and Heck no I don't want him.lol

but I do miss some things like his mom.lol

Idk sorry I'm not much help..