The STRESS of having my own home...

[RedneckGirl79]

I thought this was supposed to be the happiest time of my life.. I have a home, my kids have a yard, space, I can breathe... so on and so forth....

But I find myself crying more then anything anymore.. I went to paint and the paint brick I used I found this beautiful color "sand dunes. My on and off again boyfriend came over and painted them for me, did a great job.. " I get it on my walls and it has a rose tint to it.. So now my walls look slightly rose colored.. He is tired from painting,and is done for the weekend, so now all my trim is waitin to be done.. I don't know what the heck I am doing.. I wish I would have never started.. We by the way are now off for good.. I can't take his back and forth anymore.. We agree'd we couldn't be a couple.. Yet he texts me outta the blue last night LATE to tell me goodnight... Ugh!

I bought my parents house from them, and being nice, I told them to take their time getting all their things out, because they combined two houses the same size into one (my grandmother can't be alone anymore)...  My dads been off work for 3 months now... Whats taking so long??? (retired) So now I am tryin to settle my house, amongst all their things, boy are they ever taking their time.. Then my mom leaves on vacation to go back home with my Aunts, Grandma and very sick cousin (see my posts about him)... I don't want her to miss that time, but damn, she didn't do a thing to get her stuff outta my house, I even boxed quite a bit of it up..

The comes the stop, as of Oct 15th, I won't have work anymore.. I've been out applying everywhere, but its so hard to get a job at this time.. So I am praying that something comes through.. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.. Maybe I was supposed to be out of work, so I'd go back into an office, so I will have health ins, who knows.. Recently I found out that I can not insure myself or my oldest and youngest due to health conditions we have.. So I have to get insurance through an employer in order for us to have ins. Ugh.. I give... When it rains it pours, and I know that there is a pearly in every sand storm... but DAMN!!!  I'm having a hard time waitin the storm out..

Thanks for letting me vent.. :)

[crazee4u]

Sep. 14, 2008 at 3:36 PM

Well for me we had issues this morning...IKE hit st louis and we had too too much rain..the sump pump went out in the basement...started taking on water in the basement and then ran to Homdepot and got a new one ....finally that fixed and the the electricity went out...well...that means the sump pump did not work and once again....back to square one....Always something...isnt it?

[2dogmom]

Sep. 14, 2008 at 5:26 PM

oh honey I know! I painted purple and blue in my first condo...yes bad bad bad so I had to repaint it all myself...4 coats of white paint later....wish I lived by you I would help. The key is to tape things. How are your sugars if I may ask? I am the diabetic you ad talked to before. I work for the irs half the year and get insurance through them its awesome. Maybe there is an office by you.

http://jobsearch.usajobs.opm.gov/a9trirs.asp