Sunday night (late...maybe mon. morn)

[dwinkel]

Well, ladies if I start writing here alot of you may not ever come back here. I tend to do most of my "spewiing" in spiral bound notebooks that I tend to forgot where I put and know that I have written things that I really didn't intend for others to see. I just feel they are a safe way to let off steam but as I have lost most of them I know the family will find these snipets of info long after I am gone from this earth. Why start doing it here? Most likely cause I won't lose the puter in a pile of papers...I honestly don't know .You know that there are times when you feel your life has got to be the worst on the planet and you have no one to talk to. I feel like that alot. When I sit on my "pity pot" and have my own party. I know I should kick myself in the a$$ and get doing what I need to but I don't. WOW... I HS my "kid's" and that was a good run-on sentance.  Anyway ... I again lose my focus.  The thing that scares me most about writing here is that everyone can see it and I WILL BE JUDGED on what I write. I am not perfect, never claimed to be. Far from it! I'm just saved by the blood of Christ and will not deny Him. If you don't like it leave now. I will not push it in your face, but it is who I am. I have alot in common with Sarah Palin right now ... I have a son with DS and a daughter (16 yrs old) that we not too long ago found out will be having a baby. I was prenataly diagnosied with our son, just as we were planning my husbands "retirment" from the AF. Happy, happy, joy, joy! We moved when I was 7 months pregnant. I loved switching OB's at that point. ... especially knowing that the baby had DS. Made things alot of fun! 

I have tons to do yet before sleep and need to get off here. If I haven't scared you off yet ... come on back. If you have any advice contact me (there are days I feel I'm gonna really lose it). I hold things together the best I can. I've asked my mom how she did it with me and my 3 younger brothers (all within 5 yrs) and she says she just tied a knot in the end of the rope and hung on .....I told her I fell I need a chain some days cause a rope just won't do it! I'll be back ... I know where the puter is....

[nikki7376]

Sep. 15, 2008 at 3:10 AM

It is great that you have found a place to vent....I myself lost my mind a long time ago ,i think it fell under our couch with all the dust ,toys ,socks,silverware and everything else under the sun that gathers under there.One day i will take a look ,but for now i am just to tired...lol!!!! I will look forward to reading more of your post